9th Feburary 2015 - total losses £15-20,000
Day zero - lost £50 on the dogs. I didn't even go in to bet on the dogs I was looking for todays sport coupons. Following this and a huge number of similar senarios I have opened an accout here to record my latest attempt to quit gambling for good. I am trying to focus on all the good that can come from quitting, but it is already tough. I have self excluded from all my online accounts so I have to physically go in to place any bets here's hoping I never set foot in a bookies again!
Day 1 - clear for now.
it wasn't easy, but that is my first 24 hours. There were tricky points, in the evening when the football was on etc. Driving today stopped at services only to be confronted with fruit machines. Gambling is everywhere and reflecting on this it is no surprise that it is so easy to fall into the trap and so hard to get out! Writing this helped me to put down my thoughts and organise how I feel. I am only free for 24 hours, the cravings are still strong but I know that will lessen with time. Thanks to everyone who has been in contact your support is really useful. Lets go 24 hours at a time. CSG
Day 2
Today wasn't as bad as day 1. Today was difficult, Its hard to believe it has only been 48 hours. I switch between berating myself for past mistakes and encouraging my progress. I keep myself going knowing that it will get easier with time.
Day 3
​Still going. Its been tough but today was a bit easier. I am sure like many others I have spent too much and I am struggling to make the end of the month. This makes the cravings so much worse. I still think if I could just get on a roll everything would be ok! I know though that my greed would make me keep going until eventually I lost it all. I don't even care if anyone is reading this, it is useful to reflect on my experience and remind myself why I am doing this.
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Well done on 3 days csg , those first few days really are the hardest.
Your right gambling is everywhere you look,the amount of adverts is absurd as well.
The L ad brokes life;what a load of b******s! It doesn't show the chaser -the one that can't pay the mortgage,the one that has payday loans;sleepless nights of worry!
Sorry for the rant! Well done for starting a diary;your on the right path.
Keep remembering we can't win cos we can't stop.
Keep posting ,,trigger.
Well done on starting your diary here this place is great and you will get some great support and advice. Won't always get a reply but keep going writing your thoughts down in here.
Well done getting through the first few days it's really hard in the early stages keep strong.
30 days clear! I am so happy witht my progress, if I am honest I never thought I would make it past my last pay day (2 weeks ago now). Although very pleased I find myself thinking about gambling a lot! It is easier than it was gambling is a true addiction and nothing short of complete abstinence is enough. I have quit previously for up to 100 days before I relapsed. So I am aware that I have to stay vigilant and strong. One real issue for me is the number of adverts during sport on tv and at the ground. I love watching sport and i on itv last night 2 add breaks during the football halftime. It is not an exaggeration, every other advert was for a betting company, 4 for a certain. Company hiring ray Winston. It is horrible to constantly be reminded of your addiction. I wish they would ban the adverts as per other addictive products i.e. cigarettes. When I see the adverts I think of other people being drawn into this world and i hate it. I wish i could add a statement to each one saying yes this is fun, you will enjoy it,for a time but be prepared for years of lying , cheating,worry and prepared to hate yourself. It will happen at some point. Appologies for the rant! Bottom line I am so pleased to have made it to 3days. Just got to keep going. Thanks for the comments although I haven't. Posted anything for a while I have been reading.
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Don't worry about the rant, see my latest post. It feels good to write it down, i HATE that advert. Good to hear from you. How are you getting on?
quote=Trigger]Well done on 3 days csg , those first few days really are the hardest. Your right gambling is everywhere you look,the amount of adverts is absurd as well. The L ad brokes life;what a load of b******s! It doesn't show the chaser -the one that can't pay the mortgage,the one that has payday loans;sleepless nights of worry! Sorry for the rant! Well done for starting a diary;your on the right path. Keep remembering we can't win cos we can't stop. Keep posting ,,trigger.
Love the rant!!! Feel exactly the same way about these bar stewards!
well done on the journey so far
much love
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Hi!
noticed we havent seen you for a few days, how are you getting on?
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