My recovery diary - Last bet 18/02/2012 - Forwards and upwards

Day 17,

Thanks Duncan.

The weekend has been great, girlfriend is down, Panto was fun, not had any urges to gamble. Sitting indoors today just watched the end of the tennis, am pleased with how I am doing but I am aware I will be jobless in just over a weeks time so unlike in the past when I would gamble in this position I won't this time because I will only make it worse. My money needs to protect me whilst I am looking for work and not earning anything

Hi Andy,

Glad you had a good weekend and enjoyed the panto weekends like that are priceless.

You sound really focused on the task in hand at the moment... Hold that thought and keep going !!!

Best wishes on the job front

Blondie

Hi Blondie, thanks for your post.

Day 18 completed.

Getting cravings to have a bet mainly because I won't be earning after the 5th of Feb and because the parents are away. Need to stay focussed and concentrate on the job hunting and need to prove to myself I can stay strong whilst the parents are away. Very tough but I will repel these urges.

Been catching up on your diary. So glad to see you are still going strong. I've had a few wobbly moments but not given in to temptation. I keep remembering that we are all ganging up on this thing together; it is not just any one of us alone. Here's to another day gamble free.

DAY 19 Conquered

Thanks Paige, I know I am not alone. Urges are there and have been all day but took myself home and am now pleased to be in the warm ready to listen to the football matches. Have a good night everyone x

Keep going Wilsy, you're doing well. Focus on the positives that not gambling for 19 days has brought - then imagine the positives after 190 days...! Beating this addiction can be done.

Thanks Paul mate you are right focus on the positives that not gambling brings.

Day 20 is up

Still staying strong, urges are there to have a small flutter but I know if I do I won't stop.

Life is better, feeling happier in myself probably because I've got 4 days left in a job I'm tired with, roll on Tuesday, lay-in time then time to job hunt 🙂

Hi Andy,

Thank u 4 ur support on my diary. It means a lot 🙂

Well done 4 resisting the urges and staying strong... this journey is not easy, but u r doing brilliant!

Have a gr8 nite xx

Hi Andy

20 days and staying strong sounds like a fantastic post to me , ur a fighter like many of us u may never beat gambling but gambling will never beat u , that life ur looking for is realistic and u av the strength to do it

Keep making the right choices sometimes thats all we can do

Castle2

Wilsy,

Relatively new so not had the chance to read through your whole diary. Good effort on the 20 days mate; you can do nothing about the past - only work on today and tomorrow

D123

Day 21 finished

Thanks Castle and desperate. Thanks for your comments you are right I might not have beaten gambling but gabling won't beat me and I will keep fighting each day and not worry too much about relapses they might happen as long as I keep fighting.

I will post you both back tomorrow but need to go to bed now.

Feeling good at the moment had a friend round we had Chinese and watched a film and laughed, already feel the old self is back and I wasn't too far away. Here is to another non gambling day tomorrow. Cheers everyone x

Andy

three weeks gamble free.!!!!!

Well done fella.

Keep bettering your tomorrow with todays choice.

No bet today.

Keep enjoying what abstinence delivers.

Duncs stepping forward never back

DAY 22 - No be today

Hi Duncan I know mate over 3 weeks racked up, doesn't take long does it. Feeling like I am back in control again and am happy but so tired. Might have a job interview soon though so promising times. Football game tomorrow Palace vs Charlton, really looking forward to it like I always do being a season ticket holder

DAY 23

Another day bet free and what a great day I have had. Watched my football team C Palace come from behind to beat the clowns nothing like winning a London Derby. Now in bed watching film, zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

DAY 24

Laid in bed for far too long today as it's a cold wintery day and now got a migraine and my eye feels as if it will explode so going back to bed lol.

No urges to gamble, feeling fine