DAY 25 (Quarter of a century and not out)
Had a good day today made some sales proved to myself how good I am at my job, the hours flew by and tomorrow is my last day before I am unemployed. CV's have gone out today and I'm not worried about finding work someone will snap me up and know they have found a gem.
Looking forward to some rest but my head is clearer now I have stopped gambling for 25 days. Here is to my future!
Glad to read such a positive post, mate.
I'm sure you wouldn't be feeling this optimistic if you were still gambling.
Keep up the good work!
Day 26
You are spot on there Paul, thanks for your post.
Well last day today as a working man. Got a film tonight and am looking forward to a lay-in then the job search commences, nice to have a break in between jobs and I wouldn't be this optimistic if I were gambling so all is okay
Hiya Wilsy
Cheers for the post on my diary.
Congrats on over quarter of a centuary.
Brilliant.
Still getting used to the site but just wanted to drop by and say thanks for the kind words
Joe
Hi wilsy
Well done for reaching your quarter of a century!! I will be on day 20 tomorrow so not far behind you. We can spur each other on from now on.
Take care and stay strong and focussed. I will be!!
Day 27
Got a job interview on Friday think It will be the most formal one I have been on, bricking it. Panicked immensely today and nearly gambled going into a different town and coming so close to walking into a bookies, think I was wanting to hide and take my mind off things but I resisted the escape. Must stay focussed I am very venerable at the moment, money, time, locations, must stay strong.
Andy.
My friend, you did a great thing by beating the urge to gamble. For that take heart, your resolve is strong and through your honesty it is there in your post for all to see.
A new job !! Fella look at that as a positive, you can do this, carry on in the same vain as your last job.
You did something amazing to better your tomorrow today for that a massive well done
duncs stepping forward never back.
Good luck for tomorrow!
If you were still gambling it's unlikely you'd be able to perform at your best, but..... you've been gamble-free for nearly a month now - so give it your best shot!
Good luck for tomorrow. You have so much to be proud of and confident about; just let it show through. Here's to another day gamble free. x
Hi Wilsy.
After speaking to you a couple of days ago, letting you know I was fairly new to this, I started reading your diary this evening - well at 10pm to be precise. I have just finished more or less reading it all, bar a few pages here and there!!
What a journey you have been on!! What comes to my mind straight away, is that you really do have strength from within. It takes someone with an abundance of inner strength and determination to do what you have done so far.
I am not far behind you, now on 21 days or 3 weeks. I am determined to change my life back to the way it was almost 3 years ago. I have kept my recovery very simple, which has been important for me especially as my mind has been in turmoil for so long with all the gambling. This simplicity I have adopted into my recovery is the following: "It's another day, it's another "NO" (to Gambling).
I find the word "NO" is such a short, simple but very POWERFUL word and this is the last word I say each night when I alter my perpetual calander to the next day's date - I simply say "It's another day, it's another "NO".
I wish you all the luck with your interview. I will say a prayer for you when (if) I get to bed this evening!!!
Take care and please walk with me and my friend Will (Power) to the "Bright Side of the Road".
Just wanted to wish you luck for today Wilsy.
All the best Jeff.
DAY 30 - Still free of gambling
Thank you everyone for your wishes of support for my interview. I think it went 50/50, okayish, bit dejected and don't think I will get the job, the interviewer was as tough as nails but I gave it my best shot. Probably going to have to settle for a lower paid job for time being just to get some money in, job searching continues on Monday.
I will re-post to all of you later, thanks again for your support. x
Well done for getting through a tough interview Willy and for completing 30 days being gamble free
Take Cate.
Sat 9th of Feb, was gamble free for 30 days, had £1150.00 in the bank and my credit card was on £300.00
10th of Feb, relapsed and started gambling again, partly because I gave in to urges, got past the blocks on my computer, had money in the bank and time.
Gambled every day since so 12 days in all.
Now I have £0.00 in the bank and my credit card is on £550.00. I will have no money now until the end of March.
I will never learn. I will the lowest I can ever be right now. I haven't eaten for 2 days, I am smoking like a chimney. I have shown no interest in my girlfriend (I'm sure she knows what I have been doing), I have distanced myself from my family. I seriously don't see the point in my existence anymore. What is the point if I've got a s**t life like this one where I keep letting myself down and others.
I am obviously going to have to confess all to my family, AGAIN! It's going to be so very, very hard but I have no money.
Have seriously thought about getting a loan from Nationwide of 3k over 12 months which works out that I would only pay and interest of £156 over the year but they probably won't give me one due to my credit history.
What have I done!!!
I hate being like this.
Any advice from anyone, I need to speak to someone.
Andy.
fella i am going to sound like a broken record.
Blocks Blocks Blocks Blocks Blocks.
the compulsion to gamble is a progressive illness where the stakes are raised, it will take far more than just your money, it will take your soul. Andy a relatively short time ago it broke me,took me to a point were i could not see a way out.
i had borrowed, begged and deceived everyone to feed the addiction.
today i can say there is a way. a way to actually win, you can keep your money and become a winner.
by admitting gambling has beaten you.
the day you admit it won and there is no more stake you will then start recovery.
me my friend i will be here banging that drum.
why??
because it is truly worth it.
your worth it.
through abstinence you will see that.
again
blocks Blocks Blocks Blocks
place them, get help you are not alone.
today join the winners enclosure again, this time don't just visit stay.
duncs stepping forward never back.
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