My recovery diary - Last bet 18/02/2012 - Forwards and upwards

164 days is quality mate, keep up the great work, gets easier as time moves on,

Glad to see things improving and sorry to bear about your grandad

Hi Andy

Those days are mountin up now and couldn't be happier for u and its good to see no complacency at all entering ur thoughts. , sorry to hear bout ur grandad thoughts are with u

Castle2

Andy

fella sorry to read about your grandad, but one thing is for sure he will be proud of the way you aere going about life today

For it a huge well done

duncs stepping forward never back

DAY 168

Thanks everyone.

Quick post today. Jo is back so going to be a great weekend. We are babysitting her nephew today who is only 1 so that will be fun. Had a great works jolly yesterday down at Brighton Marina, got home shattered yesterday from a few beers. Today I am just going to chillax and hopefully Brighton will lose again and make my day! 🙂

Andy.

Fella nothing like a rivalry to stoke up a fire lol.

Not sure if they won lost or drew, as in the grand scheme of things it won't affect my life and more importantly yours through it's outcome.

I did laugh at talksport on Friday about brighton, the pundits were writing off there new manager after two games!!

The wonderful media of Britain, love to do that all too soon

fella i hope your weekend has lived up to itself.

You deserve it, really you do.

Palace kick off next week, i do hope they get off to a flyer.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

DAY 169

Thanks Duncan, my weekend was great thanks mate, Brighton losing was the icing on the cake. Have enjoyed my time with Jo, she has gone back now but did family things and took her out a few nice places to eat. Hope the phone lines are back on tomorrow otherwise it is going to be a rather long week.

DAY 170

No gambling today, just a steady day at work and now home. Just five days now until the season starts for Palace, can't bloody wait!!

DAY 171

I've taken the day off today short notice as according to my dad my gramps is going downhill fast. I gave it much thought last night and made the decision that should he pass without me seeing him one last time I wouldn't be able to live with myself. He is still in a condition that he will be able to speak and acknowledge my visit but this will be my goodbye visit, I won't go see him in hospital again after today, as I refuse to see him in a terrible state, instead I want to keep fond memories of my beloved granddad.

Will be sad today but reality is that he is sadly on his way out, we are all hoping he just passes in his sleep and doesn't have to go through anymore pain.

I feel strong not fragile like I have been in the past. I won't let my sadness ruin what I have achieved and that is to stay gamble free.

All in all apart from this life is on the up for me as it has been for the last six months. I can accurately say that the last six months have been the most comfortable months for me in my whole life. I like the calmness not gambling brings and I want my life to remain this way.

Hope my work understand that when it comes to family these decisions have to be made at the drop of a hat. I'll drive my dad up to the hospital today and enjoy the last time I will have with my gramps.

Hi Wilsy,

I am thinking of u 2day, enjoy ur precious time with ur Gramps and remember no1 will ever take away ur memories , they r special xx

Well done on 171 days, u give me hope 🙂

Stay strong xx

Thanks Charlotte

Quick post. Spent a valuable 1 1/2 hours with my Granddad up to 3.30pm, he remembered me and acknowledged I was there. He passed at 18.10 hours, I am so thankful I made the decision to go, he was so, so unwell.

Rest in peace Gramps, I will miss you so much 🙁 xx

Thanks Charlotte

Quick post. Spent a valuable 1 1/2 hours with my Granddad up to 3.30pm, he remembered me and acknowledged I was there. He passed at 18.10 hours, I am so thankful I made the decision to go, he was so, so unwell.

Rest in peace Gramps, I will miss you so much 🙁 xx

Andy

fella I am sorry for your loss my friend.

I hope he did not suffer and glad you got to say your goodbyes.

Take good care of yourself my friend.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Andy

Thanks for ur kind words on my diary

Again sorry bout ur loss with ur grandad hopefully those last memories will stay with u for a long time and prove to be priceless

Just keep doin what ur doin and make him proud

Castle2

DAY 172

Thanks for your support at this hard time everyone. Today has been tough, I'm very sad and it will get easier. Pleased to report I have no urges to gamble, just very tired and not talkative, night x

Hi Andy,

thinking about you and your family at this sad time.

take care

blondie x