My recovery diary - Last bet 18/02/2012 - Forwards and upwards

Andy

3 points on the board that 1st win as gotta be be the best thrill every no point even to think bout gambling when there's that much excitement goin on and still another 17 home games to go. !

Enjoy my friend even the squeaky b*m times lol

Castle2

DAY 193

Thanks Shiny, you always make me chuckle, I just love the way you write to me. I am surprised too, surprised how far I have come, after some runs rides. The recent events have been very tough and the urges are always there to gamble but they are not as strong and I am stronger. To be honest I pay everything and everyone off at the start of each month and only leave myself £150 cash for the month so know I can't afford to gamble. In a way having a credit cards helps as I have a larger sum to pay off each month and I pay it.

Castle thanks for your support also, the match was absolutely awesome mate and I did start to have a squeaky b*m at 1-1 thinking 'HERE WE GO AGAIN!' but as soon as we got the penalty I knew we would win. They were pretty cr** mate. I'm going to buy my Southampton away ticket tomorrow which is £32 so with all this football I can't afford to have my girlfriend let alone gamble! lol

Today has been humid, our phones have been down five weeks and it is very frustrating. Been a bit bored at work recently, my mind has started thinking of better paid job again... I have to ask myself am I mentally ready if I took the jump or would the stress of another job make my gambling urges stronger. I might stay put until December, I'm owed commission then which I don't want to forfeit

Andy

fella a week today will see you post a double century that my friend is an outstanding feat.

for your efforts be proud.

anyone coming to this forum could take so much from you attitude toward never giving up.

fella i have been privileged to be by your side.

for that i thankyou.

oh and i hope you carry on the winning with the mighty eagles!! especially against that lot down the road from me!!lol.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

DAY 194

Thanks so much Duncan for your kind words. Will post you back once finished work but got to go now. All things are good with me, got my granddads funeral tomorrow which should be very sad, so today is my last day of the week at work.

Yo,

Just wanted to say will be thinking bout you tomorrow .

Stay strong Hun ,

Shiny xxxxxxx

Hi Andy

Hope all goes as well as it can tomorrow a good time to reflect on his life but also reflect on ur own and how well ur doin

With football sad to say my team swfc are a very poor outfit with no money gonna be a struggle again this season, I wonder if they will come and see me when I'm badly lol

Take care

Castle2

DAY 196

Thanks Shiny and Castle. Yesterday was a terribly sad day. Just seeing my gran in pieces as she hadn't properly mourned was just unbearable. The service was lovely and for me I sat there and thought of my dear granddad and knew what a wonderful man he was, and that he had a large family that loved him.

Still feel very numb today but know now I can move forward with him firmly in my thoughts, thanks to the memories he gave me.

Love you very much Granddad Ernie, will never forget you. xxx

Hi Andy

Glad it went ok and had the chance to see how we'll respected and liked he was , for you now simply go do him proud by keep doing what your doing

Castle2

DAY 197

Thanks Castle, I will do him very proud, I am determined to continue the good work.

The day started off well. Jo went round to check on her granddad who is 94 and has yesterday discharged himself from hospital (Urine infection and very unstable/weak), so I took myself off for a Sunday breakfast. As soon as I finish my last bite of my sausage and toast she calls to tell me, that he has had a fall, broken his arm and is laying on the floor waiting for an ambulance. Unbelievable events recently and now we're going to have to sit down the hospital for hours with the poor old sod who should never have been discharged.

DAY 198

The day has gone slowly but smoothly, now for a quick snooze. 🙂

Wilsy,

Brilliant to see you doing so well. Two days away from 200 is amazing. Your progress spurs me on.

Tomso.

DAY 199

Thanks Tomso, I don't know what happened something just clicked but it is still a daily struggle to keep tabs on the urges and remain on the straight and narrow. It could all come tumbling down if I made that one wrong decision, I just need to make sure I don't go that way again.

Roll on tomorrow my target will be reached and I have the next two days off, so all is going well.

DAY 200....

Today I feel very proud of myself, I have made my latest landmark of 200 days being gamble free. I know that to get this far I have relied on blocks, having less cash on me, will power and mainly lots of support on here from you know who you are.

Today I have my friends funeral but even though I will be sad, I'll remain strong, celebrate his life and celebrate my achievement at the same time. I have tomorrow off which was good planning so I intend to really enjoy myself later.

Keep up the battle everyone and thanks again for those that have been there for me. My next target is 250 days but as always will take one day at a time.

Andy

my friend today I salute you.

an achievement to inspire achievement.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

DAY 201

Thanks Duncan as always.

Bit worse for wear today after a heavy but amazing day/night at my friends wake. No I am going back to bed 🙂