My Recovery Diary (last bet 22/04/06 )

Hi Jim

Hope your foot gets better real soon.

But the fact that you were talking about it reminded me of a foot in mouth job i made at a rather posh wedding last year.

The grooms surname was king, and the brides maiden name was foot, her christian name began with an A

So there was me after a few large ones, sitting with these la di da's when i piped up , its a good job she(the bride) didnt go for a double barreled name cos she would be forever known as

MRS AKINGFOOT.... I swear i saw the tumbleweed blow across the floor.........lol

Take Care

STAY STRONG

Kim xxx

I have got a Kaiser chiefs song stuck in my head at the moment..the one that goes..

"Everyday I love you less and less"

A bit like my feelings towards gambling.

all the best

Jim (last bet 22/04/06)

hi jim remember me loza or winner from last year just popped in to update you all l am still gamble free it is now 1 year and 2 months a lot has happened glad to see you are still going strong you were insperatiol in my recovery have moved to chesterfield because of my loss to be near my brother will post again soon luv winner

Hi Jim I'm a newbie on here but admire your courage and determination. Good luck wih your journey.

I see your team have made a good start to the season, not so good at half time tonight, hope they are soon flying high again.

Paul

we came back though 3-3 will do me.

all the best

Jim (last bet 22/04/06)

Hi Loza..I have just posted on your update thread. Well done for staying strong.

Jim (last bet 22/04/06)

having a really lazy day today..due to slight hangover from drinking too much last night whilst watching the Torquay game.

Being off work sick with a bad foot does sometimes have its benefits!!

take care all

jim (last bet 22/04/06)

The past 4 years my life have been terrifying chaos. I discovered gambling when I was married to my 1st husband 14 years ago. For some reason, my ex, picked Atlantic City for our honeymoon. I am not sure why or how he thought that casinos would be a great honeymoon spot, but thats where we ended up. I don't recall much of the gambling then, but a seed must have been planted.

When we moved to California for my career, that is when I fell in love with casinos and the action associated with gambling. Fourteen years later, after my life fell apart, I ended up in treatment, not once, but twice and still continued to gamble. I am no different than any other compulsive gambling out there, I lose control, time and money, all that will never be replaced. I can't recall the number of times I have "sworn" I would not gamble again, only to return, thinking that now that I have been through treatment, I am armed with knowledge. Gambling makes no sense, and once I enter a casino, it does not matter how much I win, I will stay until I loose it all.

October 10, 2007 is the last day I gambled. I will not gamble today and I am committed to attend GA meetings. I have proven it to myself beyond any doubt, that I can't gamble, not socially, not normally, not in the future. I am a compulsive gambler I have to learn to work through the impulses, and turn the thoughts to productive ones. Gambling isn't going to control my life. I am done with the heartbreak, pain and despair, it's time to start living.

hi jim

thanks for the post in my diary it means alot to me you are spot on i wasn't thinking cleary head full of demons i'm glad i fought them off

stay focused stay strong

FOREVER GRATEFULL

JOHN

Just want to say thanks for your message of support on my diary. After my relapse, I am back fighting, and the support while I have been away has been really heartwarming, and has given me more determination to beat this.

Thanks again

Doodle

Jim,

thanks for posting on my diary.

I'm still doing ok, and today is 11 weeks since my last bet. Just had a refreshing week off chilling out with my wee boys.

Trying my utmost to keep positive thoughts at all times and not get dragged back into it - I realise how easy it would be to get complacent.

I'm constantly watching out for the warning signals now, but now feel I am in control.

Whenever something untoward comes along ie one of lifes many downs, that happen to everyone,will be dealt with accordingly without gambling being the common denominator. Now I'm thinking straight with a clear, rational thought process I refuse to let gambling become my crutch again.

I see you are 6 months (ish) gamble free - well done for that.

I've never made it to six months before Jim, but that's my initial goal - then the year, and then 2 years....

Take care,

Mikey

most of this afternoon has been spent reading various recovery sites spread all over the web. Its been good to reinforce my belief that gambling is a bad idea...for me at least.

Oh and Mikey, its been 18 months (ish) gambling free not 6 Months (ish)...lol

Jim (last bet 22/04/06)

hi jim,cant help but to agree with you that reinforcing the belief that gambling is a bad idea is a strategy well worth pursuing.

in many ways it helps to keep feet on ground and avoid complacency doesnt it?

take care

love

rusty

xx

I Have decided to post my thanks to each of you on my diary, so I can have all my friends together on one post..You have contributed to saving my life and for that I am forever grateful

Love

Lynn

xxxx

No slacking Jim

Keep it up

des