My story and it's a long one

cardhue wrote: Hi Juan Your post is indeed a long one and one that focuses almost exclusively on the money side of things. Addiction is not a money issue. Gambling addiction, like any addiction, is about escapism. What are you escaping from? Do you know why you gamble. It's not greed it's obviously not about making money If you target the cause of your escapism, you break addiction. Louis

Hi Louis,

Your question has got me thinking, something I haven't ever really done in relation to why I gamble..

If I was to say what has caused me pain in my life there are only 2 things of note, my dad leaving at a young age, however I can't say I ever think about him maybe once a year, maybe that's an issue but I'm no expert and I can honestly say I don't feel anything inside towards him and my mom re married and I couldn't of asked for a better father figure.

As for anything else, I love my wife dearly and she couldn't treat me better but I've never got over 1 special person in my life who I lost completly from my own mistakes and cowardness, I still feel this pain everyday but this happend during my gambling so whilst it hasn't helped I don't think it's the cause.

So 21/02/2017, the day I quit.

There been 2 relapses since, 1 small, 1 big around 2 months ago which I am still paying the price for now but financially things will be back to normal in December.

Overall very pleased with my progress.

I did speak to my significant other that I have a problem but she didn't seemed to *** what I was saying and didn't seem to take me seriously, I guess I was a good liar for all those years.... Here's to more gamble free days, weeks and months.