The last eight years of gambling have really taken it out of me and caused a lot of pain. Ive lost track of my number of previous attempts but am now minutes away from day 42 and feeling quite pleased to have gone this long. I havent posted a diary before but have read many over the last few weeks and they are really helpful. Best wishes.
Hiya
A massive well done on the 42 days that's a fantastic effort after 8 years of gambling, adjusting after that amount of time is always goin to be difficult so starting a diary is a great idea
Support is vital goin forward been around people who do understand what ur goin through will only help u more and help u clock more gambling free days up but more importantly not let complacency play any part in ur life something that creeps up on u when u least expect it
Wish u well in ur recovery
Castle2
Hi Castle2, many thanks for posting. I know what you mean about becoming complacent. A few months ago i managed two months, then had a major relapse and spent six months worth of earnings in two days. The money can just be added to my existing debts as im used to being in debt now but the feeling was terrible. That's why i wont be gambling again. It doesnt matter how often i think of gambling now because its pointless as it simply isnt going to happen. Roll on Friday and another g free weekend.
Important reminder: Consequences of my gambling over the last few years. Have continued to gamble since all of the below even with national self exclusions from all establishments, ga, councelling and no cash card. Most importantly why my decision not to gamble again under any circumstances is final.
- Home sold and lost
- Business lost
- Huge debt accumulated
- Hmrc officers arriving in vans to take my "assets" of which i didnt have any
- Friends and family lost
- Job lost
Day.47. Yeah! what a ****** excellent night on saturday watchin froch vs groves live. Never been to a live boxin event before and probably never would if still gambling. Eight years of s*i* and beginning to think that it is possible to have a good time without gambling. Hoping it will continue.
Day 48. It's not gonna happen today or tomorrow. If fact it's not gonna happen so might as well forget about it. Need to plan something enjoyable for next month, something to look forward to.
Massively honest posts mate. Hope u r doing well. I too have massive debts that I would continue to add to as if I can gamble my way out of it. I am sure that's y u did it. And the lack of reality whilst In the zone of win lose win lose. Lose lose lose. We always lose. Even the best gamblers lose. We just don't tend to hear about it.
Hope u continue the abstinence.
A.n.d
Day 51. Was in a sticky situation last night that was stickier than when sticky the stick insect got stuck on a sticky bun! (words of cpt black adder). However didnt give in and am still on day 51 moving towards chrimbo and 2014 gamble free. Going the gym today as its been over a week since last visit and belly is going ape s**t again! To many special mix 1's.
Hey last chance well done. I too got to a place where I thought no more gambling then got complacent. Keep up the fight and out of those sticky sticky situations.
Correction. Today is day 52. Note to self; Last Chance is my name because it's true.
Hi.
Just saying thank you for writing on my wall. Hope all is well and all the best.
Day 59. No gambling and no intention of doing so. Been drinking quite a lot recently, time for a week off.
62 days. Been getting urges recently, strange as last time i made it to two months and s**t hit the fan. Regardless it's not gonna happen now, especially with christmas and new year just around the corner. The themes and mysterious wonders of the machines arent foolin me today.
Oh yeah. Gettin keys to my own home on friday. Moving out of my grans house after two years (age 32). If i fail to pay the rent again this will be the sixth 'home' in the last eight years that has gone t**s up. ****** muppet.
Hi last chance
Good to read your blog and congrats on getting the keys to a new place!
I'm on day 30 but haven't seen any financial changes yet which is so hard to accept but I know the only way I ll ever see long term changes it's to not gamble.
Just out of interest, now your through the first two months, how do u keep setting targets to stay away from gambling? I feel great atm but the elephant in the room is that at any time I fear I could slip.
Keep up the good work mate
Stu
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