Morning,
Day 5.
Well i had a lie in and having a nice breakfast. Ham and toast washed down with coffee 🙂
Going to the doctors this morning. After last week i was in tears losing and my general state not great. I may be depressed but i am not sure.
I don't want time of work as i prefer working. I just need to battle on.
I need to be strong today and no gambling.
I hope everyone has a gamble free day.
Toad.
Day 6.
No gambling so all is good. I have the cold 🙁
Good luck everyone in your recovery.
Toad.
Day 6 update.
Just finished work. I'm feeling a bit fed up on general. I should be happier as i only owe £500.
Why do i feel so fed up. My wife is holding money of mine and i want it back. But i know i am in danger if i get it back.
There is no easy solution.
On a positive note I did not gamble today.
Toad
Mate the gambling is working on you. I am so familiar with that chain of thought. 6 days is fantastic keep strong and dont let it talk you into day 1 again.
Day 7
Feeling very tired today. I went running last night with the club which always helps.
No gambling urges. I hope everyone has a gamble free day.
Toad.
Day 8.
Good luck in your recovery.
Toad.
Day 9.
Morning. Nearly double figures. No urges to gamble.
Good luck y'all in your recovery.
A happier Toad.
Day 10
Double figures!!!! Delighted.
Toad
Well done Toad. Let's keep it going. Next target 11 days
Best wishes
Day 11,
Hello,
Thankyou Balvaid for your comments.
I was at a wedding last night. I had a few beers and I got urges to play roulette. I am not with any online bookies so I did not act on the urges and they passed thankfully.
I woke up with a sore head though lol. Self inflicted and i am dying with the cold. Apart from that i'm doing fine lol.
Now i need to focus on the week ahead and beyond. I need to keep strong mentally and beat my demons.
I wish you all well in your recovery.
Toad.
The urges will always pass...Sometimes all it takes is a qwik snort @ them & other times it can seem like a battle of wills but it is a fight you must continue to give your all to!
I didn't have the ultimatum but I had the abject shame of handing over my finances & the deliberations as to whether to ask for money when none was given...It sucked but I really wish I'd done it sooner! There is shame in being an addict but none in asking for help & accepting it!
Hope the cold passes soon! Keep your focus - ODAAT
Day 12
Morning.
Well no urges today but do I hate Mondays. I used to go to the bookies most Mondays to escape but I lost so much.
Today I will not gamble.
Good luck everyone in their recovery.
Toad.
Day 13.
Things going well so far. I need to remain focused. Like a man walking a tight-rope.
Good luck all in your recovery.
Happier Toad.
Well done on 13 days, and a happier toad makes a positive toad :)))
Have a good day
Suzanne xxx
Day 14
Two weeks! Spoke to the gambling counselor last night to arrange appointments. I need to be pro-active.
Working late tonight so that might keep me on the straight and narrow.
Good luck everyone.
Toad.
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