new beginning

Hi all,

Come on Northern Ireland. The green and white army.

Yeah!!!!

Toad

Toad

It was nice chatting to you in chat tonight.

I really hope you find the strength to stop gambling altogether. Whatever happens you sound like you have a good wife behind you who is supporting you.

Good luck

Gaz

Hi Swordfish,

Very kind words and much appreciated. We had a good chat so thankyou. I will never give up trying to stop.

Toad.

Hi All,

Very tired today. This week has been busy. No urges to gamble today.

Have a good day.
Toad.

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Hi All,

Just having 1 beer. No gambling urges. I hope you are all having a good day.

Toad.

Hi All,

I'm up early painting the decking. It's going to be a quiet weekend.

No thoughts of gambling today. I don't want to be anywhere near the bookies.

Maybe 3 or 4 years ago i'd be planning to do a few horses.

It's not worth the hastle. As the advert says :-

' if the fun stops, STOP '

в—Џ TOAD

Day 2,

Good morning all. No gambling yesterday and today the bookies are closed.

It's going to be another great day.

I wish you all the best in your recovery.

Toad.

I'm going to try a change this week and do no gambling on lunch I'm gonna have lunch and a ciggy and go back to work after ten mins then after work go straight home. Then I will change a new beginning mate

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Hi folks,

I posted a poem and gamcare didn't publish it. It was not offensive.

People died for our freedom of speech. Just remember that. Why should i stay with gamcare if i can't voice an opinion???

Toad.

Hi All,

I am about to reach a milestone.
Nearly 1000 entries on my diary.
Toad has been constantly questioned as to his commitment on his diary. I have always taken this site seriously. Sadly I have found that if I make jokes people don't find them amusing.
Even when toad goes to a funeral people are laughing and chatting. Life simply goes on folks. So even with your gambling addiction the world keeps spinning and I can hear laughter all around.

After 1000 posts were am I. I hear you all asking that question :-

1) I am debt free. At one point in my 13 years of debt i owed 18k. I am still delighted with how I have progressed.

2) I am alot more wiser with gambling and it's affects.

3) I pass on my knowledge to other gam carers.

4) i am happy on my skin. I mean membrane 🙂

5) next month we move into our dream world.

You are so positive toad i hear you all say. Yes i am. Life should be lived and enjoyed. Read my posts and take positivity from them. If i can do it so can you!

So i'm back on my lily pad. Yesterday i was at the bookies at lunch and after work. Is that good? Of course not but today i won't gamble.

So give three cheers to toad.

Hip hip - horay
Hip hip - horay

Good luck in your recovery.
Toad.

PS please post this gamcare as it's positive for others. Thankyou.

Hello Everyone,

Today will be a great day
I have £10 in for lunch and possibly some frog ale later.

Things are going okay. Although i lost £7 yesterday.

No bets today. Staying safe.

I wish you all a happy and healthy day.
Best wishes.
Toad.

Morning All.

Day 3.

I'm not in great form today. I have lost my croak.

But hopefully i will get back to my usual self. I have no urges to gamble today so that is good.

Good luck in your recovery.
Toad.

Good morning All,

Day finish. I hope everyone is doing great.

Yesterday I found my way into the bookies and lost £10. I was annoyed.

Last night I did a bit of thinking and it was not about myself. I was thinking about the users on Gamcare.

Firstly I want to appologise if i offended anyone on here. Sometimes people said stuff and i bit back. No excuse for myself though i was wrong.

My ego can be big being a toad but it's time to think of others.

My anxiety has got really bad lately. I feel terrible. I'm stressed about moving house. We have thus ongoing IVF treatment and now my wife has shingles.

My work is stressfull, i am drinking too much. I am losing it a bit. The doctor refused me diazapam yesterday as i've been on it 3 months. It did work for me. I stopped the beta blockers.

I recently came off anti-depressants after using them 6 months. Toad fell off his lily pad and was throwing up and had the runs too.

What I am trying to say is that i am probably not well. Coming on here relapsing constantly is not helping other users.

I have decided to quit my diary. It was not an easy decision.

I announced it on my lily pad to the creatures on the pond. The dragonfly colapsed and the kingfisher flew into a tree. The water fowl cried and the water rat ( the book maker ) well he didn't care for my welfare. Just wanted my cash.

The only good news is that i am getting some money from my late grannys farm. She died in the year 2000. A great woman.

We all know our health is more important but it cheered me up.

I want to thank Gamcare for all their support.

I want to thank each and everyone of you that offered me support on here. Loxxie, Alan, Balvaird, oldham, cynical wife and swordfish. Sorry if i missed anyone.

One thing i will do is keep reading posts and also read my own diary and the advice i was given.

Thankyou again from the bottom of my heart. I was swimming along the pond a few days.

Just made the bank and i have hopped into a sheltered place near the pond.

A few rocks lying. I feel safer here.

I hope god looks after me and I make a better life for me and Mrs Toad.

This really is a long goodbye. Ribit,ribit and Toad was gone.

The world still spins and life goes on.

Please read toads diary and learn from his mistakes.

Goodbye.

Toad.

Paul,

I wish you and your wife every success in the future. Please keep your diary close and the forum as well. Always here if you feel the need to "pop in".

Best wishes