New Beginning.

Just thinking about you, was worried as your diary didn't seem yourself. Honesty is the best way. I hope you're ok. When's your meeting? What's done is done.

Sorry to hear this , but hey we are only human after all.... you done great to go 6 months gf and have admitted your mistake and are ready to start again, right? You have no need to apologise to anyone, get back on that horse and learn from your mistake and put things right, its just a blip that you cane overcome...... keep your chin up mate.

Thankyou Merry go round. I havn't been to meetings for a while as I was dancing those two nights. Can't believe I've been such a fool knowing what I know about gambling plus all the support on the diaries and I had counselling as well. Beggars belief that I could have gone back on them machines. Don't know what to make of it at the moment. Sheer madness.

Thanks Chartom.

Mr L did exactly this on a shopping trip five months after near nuking everything around. I actually caught him in the shop. Inexpicable to both of us and fortunately he was carrying a very limited amount of cash. He reviewed that and now carries none. My advice would be to tighten up your barriers and prioritise GA. I firmly believe it's that weekly meeting that keeps him grounded.

All the best

It's definitely a tough nut to crack!

Hi Stephen,

Didn't speak to you before but caught few posts of yours. Such a positive man ☺

Listen...sorry to hear about your lil blip.

One piece of advice. It happened and you cannot change it. Please don't make it a repeat. Now you MUST stay on guard because (correct me in near future if I am wrong)...the devil will wisper : " you lapsed, what's a point, back to nothing..go on...go on..have another bet as it all ruined anyway".
Now...PLEASE PLEASE don't listen to this voice because it's all lies! You're NOT back to square one, you only made a wrong choice by letting your recovery loosen up...also I guess by not taking your regular medicine..aka
..GA

Stand bk up...dust yourself down and learn from this.

You're not alone! Keep posting!

B&S xx

Hi Abstainer,

Countless times I've been in your shoes. It's the worst feeling in the world but you HAVE to just take what went wrong and apply a new strategy for this next time.

It took me about 9 months of doing this until I finally found what worked for me.

Stay strong. This could be your time you quit for good! Remember that.

Thankyou Lethe, S.J.B. & Adam.

I'm not giving in. I'll try even harder this time.

Hi Stephen, just read the post on my diary.....I beg you not to beat yourself up over this! You have been nothing but kind, supportive and encouraging to everyone here and you human. We've all been in your shoes so no one is judging you, just get back on that horse and keep riding. Being and staying GF is literally one of the hardest things I've ever experienced. Keep fighting and rake care my friend S:)

Hi Stephen, I'm sad to read about what happened but relieved you are straight on here to be accountable. I know its a bit cheesy to say, but your story is one where you have really been on a journey and I don't think this is the final destination by any means. You've got too many songs to sing yet! Stay on the road and I am sure there will be many here to help you as you have helped them.

Thankyou Sharon & 4D. I appreciate your support.

It's day 1 for me and I am determined not to gamble today. I will post on my diary every day if only to say i'm ok.

My name is Stephen, I am a compulsive gambler, and my last bet was 16th November 2017.

Abstain cmon your doing good you've realised what you've done and back us now keep going

Don't beat yourself up too much over this, get back on track and stay away from that first bet.

You managed 6 months last time which was massive, one day at a time now.

Stay strong:-)

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