New Start, new me…

Stay strong you got this. I understand how you feel cos no one understands it even when your try explaining…all the best and hopefully you pull through 

You can stop if you want to be strong take each day one by one, best wishes

It’s very tough when we strive to do better for ourselves and our families with the help of us on here and all of the systems set up in this modern world we should count our selves lucky

Always take each days as it comes. I wake up every day and tell myself "Just for today I will not gamble" - Its worked for me. If you feel you're struggling with the addiction you should seek help. 

For me when I gambled. I could have won xxxx and it still would never be enough. The danger was that I loss chaser even if initially I won. 

Life is better gamble free! Ive spent many years in and out of recovery...Things do get better.

@bm241pin5d 

I too am a loss chaser. 
it’s crazy I could win xxxxx on Monday, but if I was losing a tenth of that on Tuesday I’d still chase. I’d suggest three quarters of the times I gamble I can initially win, but when balance goes down I chase, raise stakes, get hot, get agitated. I’m getting hot talking about it. But talking about it helps. I too hane have spells of abstinence and spells of gambling. My Gamstop recently came to an end (5 years) and I hoped I could gamble in a controlled manner. Not a chance. It wasn’t long before I was back in my old ways. Fortunately I excluded again before I did really bad damage. The depression I felt the day after was awful. I just find it so bad that the slots affect us the way they do. The way they get inside our heads. But that’s what they’re programmed to do. I’m not one of these people that try to say gambling /slots should ne abolished because we all know many can gamble sensibly and within their limits. But the random slots that are programmed the way they are should be. They are the C*****e of gambling. 

Totally understand its like a blur the weekend is gone P**f along with your wages and dignity.  I feel that maybe my brain is now fff.k and not helping me make good choices 

@hd2r19mj8c

Yeah my Gamstop came up not to long ago - but I know now that it can't be a part of my life ever again and reactivated it for another 5 years.

Loss chasing became dangerous for me especially if I'd won beforehand - I never remembered at those points the pain, anxiety, stress & shame I was about to feel when it was all gone. 

@Mast2021 yes I had many occasions that payday came and it'd be pretty much gone before the end of the day. Wondering how I'd get through the next month on pretty much nothing made me more stressed and inclined to play.