No going back

Well done Angie, you are doing so well, hope the interview went well, take care J x

Thanks Jaz. Interview went well, second one today! :S

1 MONTH GAMBLE FREE!!

My mental health has improved massively, I can sleep at night!

My debts have decreased!

I am so much happier, make the step, it's so worth it!

Well done Angie on a month gamble free, hopefully I'll be able to say the same in 3 weeks time, hope your second interview went well, take care J x

Hi. Wow didn't realise how long I've not been on for. I'm coming up to 4 months gamble free now, I've actually managed to save money and pay some debts. I have a new job and an amazing boyfriend who totally gets me and understands the gambling and the emotions that come with it, everything seems to be going well now I've blocked out the gambling. I still get a £1 scratch card now and again, which is no harm if you are the one in control! Hope everyone is doing okay.

Ann x

Hi angie,

Very well done to you nearly 4 months of being gamble free, keep staying in control and keep winning.

Take care

Suzanne xx

Hi, not been on for a while. Lost my battle on Monday and gambled.. A lot. Thought I would be able to control it, but I can't. I couldn't walk away, I played until nothing was left 🙁 feel gutted after how far I've come.

Sorry to hear you gambled Angie. Just had a quick scan of your previous posts & control comes up a few times. We have to accept that we cant & never will be able to control our behaviour when it comes to gambling. A cheeky £1 on a scratchcard or the lottery keeps you in the action. It sends the wrong message to your logical brain. It is a message sent by your addiction to keep you near. Addiction will wait patiently for you to convince yourself that you can control him that you can play with him safely. He will then come back too you hungrier than ever ready to take everything you hold dear, your family, your self esteem, your honesty, your dignity, your mind. Why when all these things are @ risk do we continue to allow it too stay in our lives in any shape or form. No gambling has to mean no gambling

Hi Angie,

Well done for coming back, I would definitely not say you have the lost the battle, otherwise you would not be here, you have had a slip, be it very painful, you have not lost the battle at all, after so many hard steps forward, you slipped, proud of you for getting back up and coming back here.

Dust yourself off, and carry on with those forward steps and don't look back

Suzanne xx

Hi everyone, just a message to say no more relapses and I'm doing really well at the moment. My boyfriend has to be in control of my money, but it's what I need otherwise I know I would still go back to gambling. Hope everyone is okay x

Great to hear from you Angie and even better to know you are continuing to abstain and maintain.

Keep going and keep winning.

Suzanne xxx

Had a bad few days lately. When I'm not gambling I'm thinking about it! Lost a lot of money over these last weeks. So hard to stay focused. Know I'm upsetting my boyfriend too, he doesn't know what else he can do to support me. 🙁

Wow it's been a while since I've been here. Getting emotional reading these, things are much better these days, but gambling is still a problem. Especially these last couple of months, really need to put a stop to it for good, but it's so hard.

Back again, after still not being able to beat this disease. Lost over £2000 this year, heartbreaking to know what that money could have bought.

No matter what, I just always want to gamble! Even though I know I have little chance of winning, and even when I do I just carry on betting. It's an evil illness, how can it control you so much??

Day 4.. Trying to keep positive!