Ok here i go!

One of lads I know has just blown 750 quid on roulette, in less then 20 minutes sat with a head in his hands refusing to admit he's got a problem.

Alls im thinking is that could quite easily be me! And glad it's not!

Thanks for your kind words on my diary. It certainly gives me a lift when someone reads and can relate to my diary.

You've made a great start, addiction is progressive it sneaks up on you and so is recovery you won't have all the answers In a few weeks, I'm nearly 500 days and still have the urges not as bad granted but they are still there. What I'm trying to say is it took you a while to get in this mess it's going to take you a while to get out of it, be patient it will come and it is worth it.

Reading Your diary you do seem tormented by the bookies, yes they have caused you a lot of pain but they aren't going anywhere. One of the key things I did was self exclude, I know people mock it but it's done me no harm for the last 26 months.

I remember doing it vividly walking into the first one with my brother there to keep an eye on me, I was s******g it, embarrassed and ashamed. The manager who did the SE was great she was genuinely pleased for me.. I walked out of there feeling on top of the world, it's very empowering and felt like I had finally admitted I could not gamble anymore. I'd slammed the door shut and it felt good, we then went and did another 5or 6 bookies and I felt prouder and prouder when I walked out of them I had a spring in my step, it's a Saturday morning I'll never forget.

Since then I've gone on to SE from over 100 bookies now using the SE helpline 0800 294 2060. I'd recommend going into your main bookies with someone to SE it's great to stick 2 fingers up to them or if you prefer call the number all they need is an email with a photo of your passport or drivers license and selfie they will talk you though the areas you want to SE from all on a half hour phone call.

I honestly can't see any reason if your serious about stopping(which i believe you are) why you would not do it.

Take care bud

KTF

Hey Blown, here to help with CV.

Give me a shout !!

Sbb

Good ish day

Followed by a lovely offer of a fellow gamberling quitter helping me with my cv

Followed by a good night in chat room!

Bookies didn't make me that happy entire time I gambled! Puts things into perspective

Good stuff Blownit, glad to see you are getting there, nae easy but at least you are not gambling like we say you never win.

Malc

Day 14 Blown.....That's 2 weeks!

🙂

M x

Day 14 2 weeks no gamberling

That's longest iv been before by 13 days!

Still got thought of that lad blowing all that money yesterday and it being quite easily be me as I know exactly how mind works when deep into gamberling. I still think like it now! But the reasoning with my self NOT to go to bookies is getting stronger.

I think of it this way. Jackpot is 500 quid.

I'd have to go in and jackpot it 30 times in a row to even break even... I played them for a year and jackpotted it 3 times ..... that's pretty crappy odds lol.

Still just trying to fix everything iv broken in a year but like I keep being reminded you can't go any further back. IF you don't go bookies. That's a fact and much better odds then going!!! I feel like even if I went in and put a pound in that's my 2 weeks down toilet! And I'd let you guys down I don't want to relapse I hate letting people down more then I care for myself.

Today been ok been working for peanuts for a pal. But it's better then sitting about thinking about bookies !

End of day 14

Smashed it

pГіg mo thГіin,bookies

I my best total recall voice
Twoooo weeeeeekkkks
If you've not seen it this may look stupid. Most of what I say does

Anyhow well done tiny steps is all it takes.

Peace

Yeah your defiantly old as f><k bruv lol

Lol then your old aswell because we're the same age.

Have a good day
See you on the chat

Will be there pal!

Day 15.

Iv removed myself pretty much complelty from group of pals that go to bookies, so even though abit mateless at moment I know It's for the best. They can genuinly afford to loose I cannot.

Still getting urges no where near enough to actually go though. The hatred for what it's done to me far out wieghs the need to go.

Debt wise still stuffed. And as of yet not sorted owt.

I think with the quitting gamberling half the struggle is dealing with the aftermath.

So just sat in now waiting for the chat room to open.

Yes sat in on a Saturday night waiting for a chatroom to open .... I am a rebel !

Hiya Blown....you and the dog been at the chocolates again? Are you going to go to the GA meeting? You may makes some new mates

Congratulations on 2 weeks gf!
Each day gf brings you closer to getting your debts sorted. Step by step, day by day, you can do it and you'll feel so much better.
Respect for making changes by removing yourself from your bookie pals. If they're proper pals they could see you outside of the bookies 4 walls? There's many more mates in this big world of ours just waiting to be made. Onward and upward.