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Hi all possibly my third time back here. Longest I have stopped gambling for has been almost a year. Been gambling since I was probably 10 started off fruit machines sports bets and where I really went out of control is fobts. I absolutely lose all control when I play them, money has no value. Many a time have blown 800 to 1000 within half an hour. Recently slipped into old ways, popping out from work at lunch time, end up losing 200 quid in 3 spins and sitting in work depressed all afternoon. Even when I win a bit I can't cash the money in and get out of the bookies, final straw came on 3rd of sept I'd won 500 on a sports bet within minutes I'd cashed in and lost it all on the roulette plus another 100. Depression kicked in why do I do it? Literally what is the point I cannot win because I cannot stop. Anyway I haven't had a bet since so 12 days without a bet. Feeling better but still getting urges. Haven't got much money till payday so the real test will be then but I am feeling positive. Need to get some cards paid off from now until next year but hopefully going in the right direction.

 
Posted : 15th September 2014 9:51 am
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hello winger

get some plans in place would be my best suggestion

read some more posts on here

speak to gamcare

read posts by duncs he has some great advice

well done for coming back

tri

 
Posted : 15th September 2014 11:07 pm
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Hi Winger, You already know what you need to do so you just have to do it. Remember that pain when payday comes. It really does get easier with time.

Andy

 
Posted : 15th September 2014 11:29 pm
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Thanks both another Saturday gone without a gamble. I keep trying to remember the feeling after a big loss, I hate that. Still lots of pangs and thoughts about gambling but am keeping strong. Already noticing more money, surprising how long 20 lasts now compared to gambling every penny everyday regardless whether it be a football bet, roulette, lottery, scratcard or bandit. Makes me realise how out of control I was.

 
Posted : 20th September 2014 10:17 pm
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Woke up feeling positive. Realised I've only spent 20 this weekend and not a penny on gambling. Usually my head is in a spin either because I've lost a few hundred or if I've won I'm thinking about what my next bet is. Starting to think a lot more clearer. I must keep this up, have a good Sunday everyone

 
Posted : 21st September 2014 10:58 am
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Almost another week completed. Plenty of opportunities to gamble as was in service stations and airports which usually offers the chance but kept strong. Also I've been paid so feel great that I'm getting stronger. Going to have a nice weekend spending it with my wife and watch some of the golf. Also going to pay a chunk off my credit card.

Hope you all have a gamble free weekend

 
Posted : 26th September 2014 2:40 pm
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Happy days mate! You are doing great... One day at a time! Beware of complacency.... Enjoy the rider cup!

 
Posted : 26th September 2014 7:12 pm
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Thanks Bob, payday usually starts full of expectation and ends in anguish with me almost in tears thinking why have I done it again. I usually take out cash to pay off monies out out to my parents and the amount of times I've stopped in a bookies and lost it on the way is unbelievable. Anyway tofay parents paid credit cards paid all with no issues. I'm by no means out of the woods as I've quit for almost a year previously but at least I've accomplished what I planned to do.

It's unbelievable how gambling addiction is like a drug addiction once you make the choice to stop and go cold turkey is does get better each day. Always so easy to fall back into old habits tho.

Anyway onwards and upwards also a good day for team Europe in the golf

 
Posted : 26th September 2014 8:41 pm
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Feeling a little down today, can't understand why, I haven't gambled but think work is getting on top a little. Away with work till Thursday look forward to getting back getting on a diet and back in the gym. I have quite an addictive personality so hopefully can throw myself into that I know I'll feel better after losing a few pounds.

 
Posted : 28th September 2014 1:51 pm
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Just checking in, still haven't gambled but am mega stressed with work. Usually I'd be gambling now and that would make me 10 times worse. I start back in the gym tomorrow so hopefully that will help me destress. Also friday is 1 month gamble free, taking it one day at a time but it would be nice to get to the 25th of October and see how much money I have left. Fingers crossed it goes well

 
Posted : 1st October 2014 11:28 am
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Just driving home and had a real urge to put a few lines on the *****. Managed to get home and resist it, it may not seem like much but I know it will trigger off worse things.

I've worked my money out for the month and should have around 150 leftover, Co side ring I've paid off a chunk on my credit card to me that's amazing. It's a great feeling but I know I could so easily blow it. Hope you all have a good weekend

 
Posted : 3rd October 2014 7:05 pm
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Well I've made it from payday to payday without a gamble. First time in a couple of years I reckon. Friday was a little dodgy as I went to the bank to withdraw cash to pay various things. There are three bookies within 50 yards of the bank. While queueing I have the thought or urge to go to the bookies, after a battle in my mind I decide it would be stupid to do it and avoid the bookies. But I think it was more out of fear rather than anything else, I've only had aboit 6 weeks off gambling but my finances are recovering slowly, I don't want to go back to the feeling of having money one minute and not the next and the constant thinking about my next bet. I enjoy the rush of the fobts but not everything else that comes with it. Do other people quit because of the mess gambling leaves u in or for other reasons? At the moment I'm too scared to start back on the fobts because I know I'll find it so hard to stop again, long may that fear stick with me and keep me off those dreaded machines.

on a different note how many of us would've been cursing at the result of the Chelsea utd game?

Seeing the football earlier with a 93rd minute goal just makes me smile as I know for a fact I would've had a few hundred waiting on the Chelsea win and my bet would've been ruined and that would've led me to the fobts tomorrow and more than likely another few hundred. I'm a winner today as I did not gamble. Long may that continue

 
Posted : 26th October 2014 7:25 pm
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Well I've made it from payday to payday without a gamble. First time in a couple of years I reckon. Friday was a little dodgy as I went to the bank to withdraw cash to pay various things. There are three bookies within 50 yards of the bank. While queueing I have the thought or urge to go to the bookies, after a battle in my mind I decide it would be stupid to do it and avoid the bookies. But I think it was more out of fear rather than anything else, I've only had aboit 6 weeks off gambling but my finances are recovering slowly, I don't want to go back to the feeling of having money one minute and not the next and the constant thinking about my next bet. I enjoy the rush of the fobts but not everything else that comes with it. Do other people quit because of the mess gambling leaves u in or for other reasons? At the moment I'm too scared to start back on the fobts because I know I'll find it so hard to stop again, long may that fear stick with me and keep me off those dreaded machines.

on a different note how many of us would've been cursing at the result of the Chelsea utd game?

Seeing the football earlier with a 93rd minute goal just makes me smile as I know for a fact I would've had a few hundred waiting on the Chelsea win and my bet would've been ruined and that would've led me to the fobts tomorrow and more than likely another few hundred. I'm a winner today as I did not gamble. Long may that continue

 
Posted : 26th October 2014 8:28 pm
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Made a miscalculation in my finances this month so I actually have a little less than anticipated, my first thought was sod it ill gamble. How is that the answer? I'll end up even worse. Typical compulsive gambler mentality. Anyway I talked myself out of that thank god, slightly disappointed but I'm sure things will get better.

Hopefully this time next year I can be almost debt free, one step at a time

 
Posted : 28th October 2014 8:21 am

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