OUT WITH THE OLD IN WITH THE NEW

Hey Carl, look @ you creeping past the 1/4 century 🙂

Glad the counsellor is helping you make sense of things & letting you live again but this your doing not anyone else's & never forget that...You are making things happen & if you're anything like I was when I started realising I could function without gambling, d**n don't it feel good 🙂

Good luck rearranging that appointment & well done for not being complacent! You may not realise but seeing other people who have walked in my shoes, finding a much better path is where I get a lot of my strength from! Keep @ it - ODAAT

Day 43

Haven't been on here for a while, been very busy with work and family commitments, still no gambling and I can honestly say that things continue to improve in my life since I have resisted...

I had a few wobbly moments last night as there was football on and I was really tired, iv just been reading through my diary and have realised how far I have come, me and my girlfriend were not able to sort our differences out and have called an end to our relationship all together now, appointment with my councillor tomorrow, looking forward to seeing her as I haven't seen her for a few weeks...

Thanks for reading and I hope everybody has a nice gamble free day.

Hello Stranger, we wondered where you'd been...So glad to see you on 43 days 🙂 Great choice last night!

Soz to hear about the GF but better out than in when it hurts & hopefully now you are recovering you will start finding the real you again!

Hope the counselling is rewarding tomorrow! Keep strong - ODAAT

Hi mate really good to hear from you and to read your still going strong well done on 43 days just a week away from half century sorry things didn't work out with your girl mate. Hope it all works out for the best.

Hi Carl,

Good to read you are staying gamble free and winning, and 44 days today is great going,

Take care

Suzanne xx

Hi Carl & may I be the 1st to congratulate you on your 1st half century 🙂

I want to thank you for your support & let you know I'm going to be taking a break for a while, not abandoning you!

Keep strong - ODAAT

Well here I am back from the bookies, 54 days I got to and I cracked..... I am absolutely Guttered, what I thought would be a lil relaxing game of poker has ruined all of my hard work, iv been back gambling for 10 days now and have lost big...... All of my relationships I had built back up are non the wiser I'm back into my old ways, most of the money I done really well to save, gone!!!

I don't know how I fell back into the trap, I was doing really well, my counsellor bought me a welldone card for getting to 50 days, an there I was four days later imploding.... It really upsets me when I read over this diary, to think how far I had come, in such a short space of time, to then just throw it away!!!!!!! I think I need to stay on here this time for the full duration, it defiantly kept me focused when I posted everyday on here... So here we go again..............................

Day 1

Tonight I will go to bed and get an early night, up tomorrow for counselling (not looking forward to sharing the bad news)....... And off to work to try and claw back some of the money!!!

Thanks for reading Carl

Carl

Fella recovery is a journey, upon it there will be many twists and turns, yes mistakes will be made, it's what we do after making those mistakes that will define the journey.

Your honesty is one thing that will gift your recovery, keep being honest, dust yourself down and get back on your bike.

Many times on my own journey the returning to day one after a relapse has been debated for me returning to day one worked for me, because the value of my continued abstinence became more than what any punt could ever return.

Some choose to not reset the clock, that choice only you can make, recovery is bespoke.

I hope you have a worthy session with your counsellor tomorrow.

Let it gift your resolve.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thankyou Duncan, that's means a lot pal.

Hey Carl nice to hear from you mate obviously hoped it would be under better circumstances but don't beat yourself up to much people can go a year or more and still slip up to get to 54 days was great and showed you that you could do it.

This place has definitely kept me on the right path and coming here almost every day helps me massively but everyone is different.

Hope works been good to you mate take care keep strong and never give up giving up.

Hi m8, absolutely guttered, c*t change it now, but I have the power to control what's in front of me, I have been thinking right the way through I should of kept coming on here to keep my focus fresh, thanks for always being there for me m8... You have been a real good help

Hi Carl, just swinging by to welcome you back into recovery! What's done is done & as you say, it's what's in front of you that matters now!

Onwards & upwards - ODAAT

Thanks odaat it means a lot, and again thank you for always being there for me, your help and support is always immense

Hi Carl,

the door opened for a little while, but you have now slammed it shut again,

Stay strong now and keep that door shut, sending you strong and positive thoughts.

Take care.

Suzanne xx

Thanks Suzanne, I feel a lot better today..... Great to see you are still as strong as ever!!! And thank you for always being here for me you have been a great help!!