Day 9
Working hard all weekend with no gambling = good combo!! Momentum starting to build!! Staying strong and positive!!
Wishing everybody a gamble free happy day.
Carl
Knock knock Carl lol, 13 days today, very nearly two whole weeks.
Keep strong, stay focused with guard tightly up and keep going.
Suzanne xxx
Thank you Suzanne, great to see you on all the fours 444, hope you and ur family are keeping well and you are staying as strong as ever...
Day 13
Nearly on the 2 week mark, staying strong and trying to keep focus on my tasks in hand, had a lovely night with the whole family on Tuesday for my sisters graduation.... On the whole things are looking up!!!
Thanks for reading and take care everybody
Day 15
Been working hard all week, no betting or no strong urges, long may it continue.
Hey Carl not been on here for a while myself no other reason than I don't think I need to be as often thankfully.
Glad to see you doing well again and things looking up for you a bit keep going mate
Hi Dave great to hear from you pal, great to see you standing strong my mate!! Hope you and your family are keeping well... And truly well done for sorting your problem out mate, stay strong!! Keep your guard up!!
Day 17
Up and out early to tie a few loose ends, no betting all weekend, small urges now and again but on the whole a nice positive week!!
17 days Dave, very positive 🙂
Take care and stay safe.
Suzanne xxx
Day 23
Still plodding on, urges have been stronger this week, but day 23 is day 23 and that's that.... Got a lot of stress in my life at the moment, but got to keep fighting and taking everyday as it comes...
Thanks for reading and take care
Hey Carl well done on 23 days and resisting them strong urges mate. You can do it stay strong pal. Yea thanks everything good in the taxi man household work gone a bit stale now uni term is over but hey rough with the smooth soon be Christmas.
Hope you get things sorted pal
Hello everybody....
why am I like this?
why do I put myself through this?
Iv never ever felt this upset or helpless, each day that passes its becoming more acceptable in my mind to just end my life.
I've been stood in the same spot for my whole life and I'm 30 now, I just can't stop no matter how hard I try them b*****d shops on every f*****g street pull me in, I can always do a couple of days were I stay away but that's all it ever is... A couple of poxxy days,
It's just not worth it.. Y can't you leave me alone??? let me enjoy my family, friends and fiancГ©? Uv had me for long enough now!!! I want my life back, alls I want is to be a good person for f***s sake!!
I'm deceitful, a liar, a fake, and soon enough I'll be lonely, but I guess that's not enough you want me to take my life too.
Destroying me this... And I just don't know what to do about it!! Councilling, ga the doctors must all be sick of the sight of me...
Feel like my options are finally wearing thin along with my patience.
Just pause for a bit taxi man. You f'd up. Loads of people relapse. That don't make it right or good but it's not unusual. You've relapsed and f'd up. Got to roll with the punches and get back up from these knock downs. It's time to go again and kick this addiction. Tell yourself over and over again "I am not going in that bookies... I am not going in that bookies". Snap out of it and chin up. I've had to pick myself up so many times and the memories of my last f up are so massive that I can't afford to do it again. Keep the faith. Don't let it beat you. Drop us another post in the morning, afternoon and night tomorrow. I want to know how you're feeling each time. You will get your strength back.
Hi Carl, I've just read your diary from start to finish and I can see you have had a tough year. If it was easy this site would be deserted but it's not its littered with people stating out and starting again sandwiched between the ones succeeding one day at a time.
You wouldn't be back here if you didn't want to beat it, one thing I took from you best periods of abstaining where when you was posting on here everyday when you start skipping the odd day then 3 or 4 days the next thing you know you are back at it. Use this site like your going to pick up a prescription to help make you better from this illness.
I wish you all best keep posting
Cheers guys,
I was in a dark place last night, feel a bit better today, got so many debts and changes going on in my life atm moment I don't know where to begin...
It's nearly a year ago I started this diary, the 54 days I abstained from gambling were the most clear and calm my mind has been forever..
Just phoned to book an appointment with my councilor, got to phone back Tuesday, and I've got an appointment to see my doctor next Friday, time to start the ball rolling again...
Please Carl, stay focused.
Glad you're in a better place today taxi man! Knuckle down and start accumulating days. Keep the faith.
Cheers people....
Been working hard and keeping busy, no gambling for 3 days now, staying focused and keeping my head down, about to watch super Sunday in peace.
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