Day 1 of my diary
I am a compulsive gambler who has recently lapsed after 15/20 years onto playing online slots. I self excluded from site but that was up tonight and I have spent the whole night playing! my mind all over the place. As from now 6.17am I am putting my all into becoming gamble free again as I do not like where my mind and physical being have been since 22nd November when I discovered online slots. They should be banned. I am an intelligent person who should know better that you can't beat a computer program but my all self is going through an ordeal which has shattered me. However this is no excuse for going back it gambling and the issues I have it deal with in life are with me to cope with the best I can. I hope I get support here as I have been getting a lot of inspiration from others (though dare I say it ...at times I get urges to gamble after reading entries on the site...can anyone explain this.
Mo
I will not gamble today.
the very best of luck mo i have started today as well and online slots have been my downfall managed to stop yesterday before i went to far and withdrew all my money out of my account so i cant deposit cheers for now
Hi Mo,
Online slots are pretty bad. All casino type games are, especially online because it's a quick fix. I used to do the same thing. Bet for hours on end on some type of stupid game and then look back and think of how much of an idiot I had been. I was a completely different person when gambling on those casino type games. Completely irrational.
With regards to gambling after reading diaries, maybe you looked at some diary entries and thought "Well, I'm not as bad as them" or "my situation is nowhere near as bad as that" and maybe you justified going back to your favourite site again. I don't know; it's just a theory.
Anyway, best of luck with this new run of abstinence. I'm sure you'll be able to battle through it with a bit of willpower. You're better off without gambling. There's no doubt about that. Regardless of what else is going on in your life.
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