Recovery *

I have decided to leave gamcare.

Good luck all on your journey

Hey,

Why would you want to leave GC now? In my eyes you need support the most now.

Blips are blips. What's what they are. Many of us know how it feels and what of a set back it can be.

You said you are not giving up on yourself! I certainly am not giving up on you and want to see you claiming your peace of mind back, life, smiles....freedom!

You deserve good things in life as all of us do. Past is the past. It may be nasty and ugly but at the end of the day you're here and fighting! I am here too. I hate word victim. There are no victims in this world if we all live to tell the tale. I am drawn to the word survivor ☺ & don't need to tell you why!

Not sure if my blabbing on comes of any rescue, but just know that we believe in you & want to see you climbing out of that scary place. It will happen, you will set yourself free...i just know it!

You have a lot to offer & GC needs people like you to show how dark clouds dispense & rays of sun start to come through ☺

We're here, accept support, we mean good...we understand.

For now, try and be kind to yourself. This IS priority.

S x

Recovery? Or running away?

GC can give support if you want it but it's not an external force that can control or limit your actions. Your salvation lies with you and the choices that you make. A decent life without using is doable and it's been done by people who started out in the same mess as you with the same anxiety and fears as you and the same addiction as you.

It's not easy but it's worth it.

Hi, I hope you come back, no one is going to judge you on here for slipping back, everyone wants to give support and encouragement as best they can. You deserve a better life and you can get there with the right support but you have to really want to change. X

Thank you for all the messgaes. Hopeful soul your words have been burning my brain 🙂 in a good way.

I am not running away from recovery. I just hated myself and couldnt bear to see my own words.

Was an odd day. Yes a blip but pulled that in and continue to be gamble free.

I am not sure how i feel about anything but I do know that my finances being out of my reach

is for the best as my highs and lows do not need gambling to add fuel to an already huge fire.

Slept for hours and needed to , was exhausted and making decisions in tiredness never did

anyone any good.

Anyway I can bear to see myself write so onwards and upwards.

Thank you all

Gamble free. Mental health still very poor. Had my hair cut in the hairdressers and ran out of there mid cut.

I will not give in though. I will not be a prisoner, i refuse

Hello I will save myself from the dark,

So sorry you are going through this. you are very welcome to give us a call on the Helpline 0808 8020 133 or chat to us on the Netline if you want. It might help you to talk it over.

Best wishes

Forum Admin

Thank you. I just tried to call but I am quite tearful so ended the call. I will get through this. I have to

Hi there, I will save myself; you just make sure you're safe and sound, OK, and try again when you feel ready. I know your sister is supporting you. You take care OK 🙂

I have been up all night creating accounts with every gambling site I could find. Hours and hours it has taken me.

I have done this for me, my own blanket ban which should have bee in place to protect those caught up in this hideous addiction a long time ago.

I am angry that whilst there are charities to mop up the damage, why is there no blanket ban

I could not do lifetime ban on them all just 5 years plus.

I have done it though because if the legislation requires me to fill in a form on why I feel it should be in place

then I would remain up the creek with no fricken paddle.

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA you ruddy parasites

I just realised the time ! o*g i have been on this mission since 11pm last night.......... RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAA

oh god I am so angry

Thank you so much for your kind words in my Diary, it really does mean a lot to me.

My goodness, I hope you've managed to get some sleep today, you must be exhausted you poor thing. I'm not sure trawling the internet looking for new sites is a good idea even if it's to self exclude, please don't take offence I say this out of concern for you, but i think that continually searching for sites will only be tempting fate and risking yourself relapsing. I understand fully why you did it...I really do (online slots are my poison) but surely you would be safer staying away?

Please take care... very best wishes

M x

Thank you for posts.

The reason I spent all those hours was as i have no financial control a risk free venture. I can not forever

live without financial control and in a way I am building as much safeguard as I can.

Besides someone with a fruit machine powered by a streetlamp I think i have just about covered it.

You are right though, had I had any means it could have been a crazy venture and I would not advise anyone to do it unless

you have the safeguards in place.

It was quite theraputic joining then sending an I dont want to ever get to know you exclusion 🙂

Emily thank you for the day count, I really appreciate that and have sent admin my mobile number to send to you.

Right I am hungry .. all the talk of roast dinners :).... will only be a sandwich as I have no energy to cook

Hey you, reading about your concerns I thought I'd drop by & say for what it's worth, going via the admin team is the safest way to switch details & I've never had a problem that way 🙂

I'm not sure if I was supposed to chortle @ your dodgy hairdo or not but it feels like you have accepted it now so I am but I couldn't pass up the opportunity for a massive WOW! & thought I would just point out what giant leaps it is that you made it to a hairdressers...Go you 🙂

Thank you Odaat, you have always been there, I count you as a night owl just like me and hopeful soul.

Yes you can laugh, I have :-)... Went on chat tonight and all the puns like did I get a cut price and that kind of led to Adam and the Ants. Still laughing about that now.

I am getting there, I will be sorting my dodgy haircut out this week, I may take a valium this time before I go 🙂

Thank you for confirming the safety of the forum admin for sending contact details, it means a lot.

What a lovely lady you are x