Regaining control after slip

Hi Blues,

It's amazing isnt that the 1st sign of not being able to deal with life on lifes terms we run to the torture chamber.

Somebody said to me, 'i have got 1k excuses to gamble but not one good reason.'

I know you wouldnt have blamed your wife if you'd have had a go cos we know the only reason we gamble is because we want to. We also know it's never one bet with us, never has been, never will be. The 1st one is the fatal one and is the one to avoid. If we avoid it wew dont have the 2nd one. On the otherhand if we delude ourselves then it doesnt matter whether the 1st one win or loses as i knowe then i'm compelled to continue untiul there is nothing left-then the tears start. The only person who has ever kidnapped me was me!

You doing well m8 as anytime spent away from gambling for a compulsive gambler is a miracle.

Blues,

Just a quick post...

Well done. That's a result for you. One day at a time. Things WILL get easier. It's those tough times that are the real test. Well done again.

Brian

blues.

Thanks for your post mate, it's a tough game this, but just read your last post about resisting that urge, and well done for that.

We all have those little moments where that temptation comes at us, but every time we overcome it we get a bit stronger.

Must admit I get that feeling of missing the 'buzz', but I also now get a better feeling of heading back to 'normality', where I don't need that 'buzz'. It's simply not worth it for the further damage it will do to us.

Keep strong, you are doing well.

David

Just a quick update, (busy busy). No bet yesterday and no urges today either, all in all feeling quite good (slept like a log since the tablets kicked in),

Hope everyone has a gamble free day

Blues

Hi blues

Well done on another gamble free day. It's a fact that the more distance that we put between ourselves and gambling the urges do seem to diminish.. Just got to be vigilant, don't get complacent, we are all only one bet away from heading back down the slope.

Keep going mate you can do it.

David

I've just took some time to actually read through my own diary, and it really has opened my eyes to how far I have come since my 'rock bottom' on 19th August 2010. When I think back to that terrible situation at home, life has improved 100000 times and more, and even though life could be so much better, it could and WAS so much worse just over 2 months ago.

Bet free day again yesterday, so now onto day 62.

Take some time to read through your OWN diary and see the range of emotions, reeally worked for me

Take Care

Blues

great post blues..yes reading back your own diary really does work...as for your wee trip to bookies the other day ive been there a couple times with my recovery too..them demons can be a right handful but you know what mate...you kicked them into touch even after the slightest of hiccups in your personal life...that could ve been major but shows how far youve come..well done my friend we can do this 😉

Hey Blues

Thanks for the post mate.

Good to see such a positive post from you on your own diary.

Keep doing what you are doing, no room for any complacency. You are doing well!

David

Hi Blues, thanks for your post on my diary. Just wanted to say well done on staying gambling free. I have read your post and think we are quite similar in many ways, like you I have recently seen some improvements in the way I am living life so onwards my friend onwards we go.

All the best. Promise.

Good day yesterday, no urge to gamble, actually thought about it when watching champions leqague last night and this is the first time a thought like this has come in a while. Was watching the Inter Milan Spurs game and thinking I would have back ed the draw or even Spurs to win. At no stage did i have an urge to place the bet, but I was suprised that the gambling thought crept in as i've been watching football (the best sport in the world, bar none!!!) and enjoying the games.

Anyway, new day, nice and sunny and cold outside, really makes me appreciate life, I love these kind of days really do. I go back to June 27th 2009, the day I tried to 'get away from it all' and am so happy, I make a b*llox of that attempt.

Anyway, 534pm this evening, will be 9 weeks gamble free and i'm loving it.

ODAAT though

Take Care

Blues

Blues,

Hello mate, long time no speak, how have you been?

Glad to see that you have climbed that mountain quite high matey, 9 weeks tonight, wow mate, we started this journey together and we still are going strong.

Hope your family and kids are good as well, do you still play footie, keep on going fella.

Take care my friend

Hi Blues,

Just wanted to thank you for your support. Nine weeks gambling free is mighty fine.. well done.. keep going a day at a time.. All the best in recovery.. S.A

Thanks for the coninued support, much appreciated.

Still playing football, and must say i'm really enjoying it now. I guess i'm getting fitter which obviously makes the game that little it easier. One thing I really notice is that when I go back for a pint after the game, there is always racing on the tv and the bar is full of blokes with betting slips, talking about racing etc, how much they have won. The funny thing is, I never hear anyone saying 'lost x amount of cash today, have nothing left for the week, dont know where the next betting money will come from etc'

I'm 100% sure everyone in there isnt a winner as the bookies would be shut down. To be honest, it doesnt bother me one bit, been playing 11 a side for nearly 2 months now and not once, in that environment, have I thought, i'll just nip in next door. The reason for this is, if I nip in next door, it will lead to me losing my family. Simple choice and my thinking is becoming more and more rational each day.

I will not gamble today and I will be a better person for it. God it feels good being gamble free, I can't wait for the day I am debt free (probably, mortgage excluding, around 1200 days!!!! lol)

Take Care

Blues

Hey blues,

Well done on another day!

Don't try to think too far into the future, it can be a bit daunting.

Just go one day at a time and all will work out.

I'm finding that it does the trick.

Keep at it, you are doing well.

David

the champions league crossed my mind blues mate...i was opposite...i thought inter would hammer them...easy peasy i thought wouldve had winnings in my account all over by half time..then the 2nd half i wouldve lost the lot and more...who would ve got that right eh...we re better off without it mate 😉 as for your 1200 days add another nought on the end for me lol 😉 keep it going we can do this 🙂