Regaining control after slip

Thanks smokes, yeah no brainer is right, but the don't think rational thinking is a CG strongest trait!!

Good day yesterday, football again last night, enjoyed playing and was pretty tired by the time I got home. No urges whatsoever to gamble, which is GREAT let me tell you. Things still a little rocky at home, but personal achievement today at 534pm, 4 weeks gamble free, giving myself a big pat of the back, but I cannot afford to be complacent and I wont be, because i've been here a number of times before, just need to keep my mind busy.

Take care and heres to a gamble free day

Blues

Blues,

You deserve a really big pat on the back mate, 4 weeks, congratulations.

keep it up mate, I know you can, how are things at home bit rocky? Im sure the new you is working in your favour mate, you are making yourself and your family proud.

Take care fella

Just general tension in the house, the fights aren't gambling related, but obviously the fact I blew so much money hasn't helped!!

We will work through it, but I know that placing a bet will not improve the situation one little bit and have NO urge to do so

Take care mate

Blues

hi blues, thanks for your post on my diary, great to hear from you.

i have read all your diary now, and spent most of the time relating to your situation(s) and feelings.

well done on your 4th week of recovery - i know it's not been easy, but i can see you are doing your best, and things are changing for you.

I too went to GA for a few years, and got a lot out of it, and i hope you can stick with it.

I also wanted to comment and share my thoughts on not having control of cash - today, at long last - when i got my weekly "allowance" i was actually quite happy - i too used to be very angry about not having control of it, and felt the same as you - but today, i was fine with it - knowing that i won't feel suicidal, ashamed, guilty, and very very sorry for myself, isn't so bad after all - and i accept that i must be getting better !!

Be the best you can be - those kids of yours deserve it !

all the best

tommi

Yes, that 10:41am post on Wednesday really said it all.

Gambling is a Catch-22 situation. If you lose, you will feel rubbish. If in the incredibly rare occasions you win than you will put it all back and more and feel even more rubbish.

So who wins? Them.

Not any more!

Keep up the great work!

November

(68 days to go, 10 weekends to go!)

Well folks, felt a real sense of achievement at 534pm yesterday, and my last bet is still extremely fresh in my mind. The feeling I had walking out of that bookies, knowing that I had to go home to tell my wife the whole truth, was absolutely horrible. I drove home in a daze, got home and tried to pick the 'right' time to tell her the world she was slowly rebuilding, had crashed again around her ears.

This is day 29 of my final battle with gambling, I will not gamble today, and hope that I remain gamble free for the rest of my days. One day at a time,

Take care

Blues

Good on you Blues !!

Keep up the good work. Keep remembering why you are doing what you are. Keep talking to your wife.You will do this and you will feel at peace.

My heart goes out to the both of you with regard to your slip. That must be devastating. It makes things tough now, I'm sure.... but you can do this.

One day at a time. 29 days is a great achievement. Get to a month. Then 2 months.... step by step... day by day. There will be ups and downs but think of the prize that awaits down the line.!!!

Best of strength to you and your wife.

Brian

Blues,

Hope your ok fella, thanks for your great advice on my diary as always mate.

Day 29, a big congratulations goes to you my friend, you have been really focussed and determined in your fight and its paying off, I know it must of been hard for your wife but now she is proud of new you for the rest of your life, you can do this mate, i know you can.

Take care my friend

Another milestone for you tomorrow, mate - day 30! Now that will feel great - 30 days without feeding your hard-earned money to those greedy gambling bosses who have no concept of what life should be like.

Have a great gamble free weekend!

November

Hi Blues,

You are doing great fella and a point you said on another diary struck a chord with me.

You mentioned having a happy childhood but other kids had all the names fashion and toys.

I knew this as child as well and remember vowing i wouldnt stand for it when I grew up and I guess when it came down to pounds and pence, i though gambling would get me richer quicker.

Glad you are winning your final fight before you retire to happiness.

Smokes out.

How good does a month feel bet free...well done blues...you should be thinking about changing your title cause you seem well in control just now 🙂 hope your weekends went well and keep up the good work encouraging others.,we can do this 🙂

Thanks for the posts, really helping me in this fight. The weekend went well, was so busy on Saturday, didnt have any urge to gamble, few drinks with the wife saturday evening, which was absolutely priceless. First time ina long time, that I could sit there and enjoy each others company without a) thinking of how much I had lost that day b) how I was going to'win it back' on Sunday. Great evening. Went out for the footy yesterday with friends and again, something I havent done that much as any money I had was always gone by Sunday afternoon. Really struck a chord with me yesterday, that I've wasted so much time, not to mention money, on standing in a room, writing on pieces of paper and handing over money to fat cat bosses. Not any more, my life is exactly that, MY LIFE and I intend to enjoy it and make my wife and children so happy, I will do this so gambling, i'm on day 32 in this fight, and to be honest, i'm so determined, but still one day at a time,

Take care and hope you all have a gamble free day

WE CAN DO IT,

Blues

Hi Blues good to read you enjoyed the drink out with the wife. And yes it is a good feeling when the head is not spinning with what had been lost and all the bull that comes with that. The lies deciet etc. The worse kind of feeling in the world. Keep going one step at a time and this addiction will beaten no matter what. All the best to you Blocked.

Blues,

Glad to hear you had a good weekend with the missus mate, I bet she feels proud of new you, your doing amazing mate, now keep on pushing to achieve even more, I know you can mate.

Take care

Well another gamble free day passes and that aspect feels good - onto day 33. Played football again last night and really enjoyed the game, however, got some potentially bad financial news last night (not gambling related but my debts dont help the situation) and hoping it doesn't happen because we will be rightly screwed. It's amazing how the mind works, my head started really working overtime thinking about gambling and that gambling could be the answer. I know it's not and have a feeling today will be tough. Slept for about 3 hours last night worrying about the potential consequences, wont find out until next week so will be pretty tired by then lol.

One day at a time and I hope everyone has a great gamble free day

Take Care

Blues