Morning all, another succesful, gamble free weekend. Was busy all weekend with the kids and football and even managed to go out for a nice family meal yesterday. I can honestly say that there were no urges at the weekend. Its as though my mind has completely accepted that I will no go into a bookmakers again. The only gambling thought I had was when I saw repeated advertisments fo the ***** jackpot this friday, and I asked myself the question, could you just bet on the lotto. I came to the conclusion that, unfortunately, I cannot bet on anything again. The chance of winning are so slim and the consequences if this was to send me gambling again are just too big (would lose wife and family). Anyway, I am happy as I am so why jeopardise that and to be honest, If I won 100 million, I am in no doubt that I wouldn't be a better person for it. So i'm enjoying my gamble free life and concentrating on the most important thing to me, my family
Take care and heres to day 39 of my new life
Blues
Day 40 today folks and no urges to gamble yesterday or today so far. Hope that my recovery stays this way as a few things outside of gambling are making life tough at the min.
Anyhow onwards and upwards
Blues
Blues,
How are you fella, I thought i wrote you a reply yesterday but didnt see it, sorry bout that mate.
Well done on day 40, its a great achievement, im in the same situation mate, no matter how hard i try to focus on life, it throws us some sh*tty things.
Keep strong blues, your doing great.
Take care mate
No bet yesterday, no urges to gamble either, even though I had a substantial amount of cash with me (substantially more than normal). Have no urges this morning to destroy everything I have, so I will not gamble today
Take Care
Blues
Blues,
Well done mate for controlling yourself with the money, you have come a long way and doing brilliantly.
Take care blues
Hope you all had a gamble free day yesterday and are able to see off any urges that may arise today. Myself, did not gamble yesterday, so that was 6 whole weeks since my last bet (534pm 19th August 2010). I dont have any urges today, but if I see the advert for the b****y jacpot for tonight lottery one more time, I may need to smash the tele. The amount of advertising gambling gets is sickening, it should be limited in my opinion. At every live game there is some bookies name sprawled on the advertising hoardings, then you have those half time betting adverts etc, preying on people with an illness, it DISGUSTS me.
The problem is, that these companies make the government money and the greedy goverment dont care whose marriage splits up, who commits suicide, how many kids go without two parents etc.
It may sound like I am angry today, but quite the opposite, I'm actually quite content in myself. Went to GA last night, smaller than usual crowd, but really good meeting and I felt it benefitted me a lot as it was a couple of weeks since I went,
Take Care
Blues
Hello blues! Read a few of your postings and thought would bump your diary up......... Hope things are going well, this diary section a sure good place to start to well and truely kick this demon.......
Read and post heaps, some inspiring stuff here and with supporting others and getting the support is a good way forward........ onwards
For some reason, my messages were not appearing - incase this one does, gamble free weekend - onto day 46
Take Care
Blues
No urges to gamble yesterday, which is a blessing. I'm not sure what is different in my quest to give up this time, but it seems that I have an inner determination which is hard to explain. Maybe the penny has finally dropped, or I have realised the consequences. I'm sure there will be days when I would love a bet, but for now, I will not gamble today.
On friday, I was early for picking my daughter up and went into a pub to kill half an hour. When I was in there, there was racing on TV, stupidly in my head I said that IF I was betting, I would have backed some 8/1 shot e/w. I watched the race and the horse won, gave me mixed feelingas and I must admit for about 20 minutes after the event, I thought long and hard about placing a bet (very hard). The urge had worn off me about an hour after the race and I was so glad I didnt undo all my hard work, and for what, the pattern would be repeated, win money, lose more money, lie, cheat deceive and lose even more money and maybe more,
Angry that I put myself in that situation, immensely proud I saw sense
Take care
Blues
Well done on seeing sense! I have always found its easy to pick a winner when we dont have any money on it. But even if we had put a good bet on an 8-1 winner it would only lead to losing it all and a whole lot more!
I totally avoid all racing on TV because I know it would tempt me, so maybe next time you could go to a pub that doesnt show the racing.
Blues,
How are you mate? it feels like I havent spoken to you in ages, congratulations on Day 46 mate, its a tremendous achievement.
Also well done on avoiding the temptation.
Like you said yourself, it would of only undone all your hard work and that is worth much more than picking a 8-1 shot.
Well done mate and great to speak to you again.
take care
Yeah mate, been very busy lately so only short posts. Feeling good about things at the minute, no urges to throw away money yesterday, heading for my initial target of 50 days, which I honestly thought was so impossible!! For now, I will not gamble today
Take Care
Blues
Blues,
Thank you very much for your continued support. You are a star on these boards.
Congratulations on your recovery journey so far. You are doing the right things and those days are ticking along nicely.
Together we can do this.
Brian
Blues,
Congratulations on yet another successful day my friend, your initial target is only 2 days away and you have done excellent in achieving this. Also you keeping yourself busy will make you focus more.
Well done mate, your doing brilliant, are you still playing footie?
Take care pal
Thanks for the replies, much appreciated. Yes still kicking the pigs bladder around the pitch, enjoying it a lot but the body is starting to crak a bit, WD40 I think!!
Blues
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