Hi so ive suffered another relapse, i think this is the 3rd or 4th since i maxed out in November 2013. It all was triggered by the grand national and i thought as id had such a long time off i felt i deserved to have a bet or two,, thinking ' its the grand national, everyone bets on it, it ll just be abit of harmless fun. I lost however i was determine to keep betting on the horses until i could "find a winner" It did come eventually and i was up about £150. since then ive dabbled the on the races every 3 days, every 2 days and then the last few days culminating in today where ive spent the last 8 hours playing horses football then losing all patience and found myself on the dreaded live blackjack for the last god knows how many hours, i must of lost £300 in the last few days. I re-opened my b*****r account today cos my self exclusion period had passed, i was asked questions about my mental health etc (its not great, i have a gambling problem) and i just basically lied to get it reopened for tomorrow. Devil is telling me to just to find one last win on the horses tomorrow and then try and escape by self excluding everywhere (which was also the plan today come to think of it and it hasnt worked). I find the exchanges really hard to resist as the odds are so much better. My mood hasnt been great recently i have moved to my own place recently and ive been thinking about the inevitability of death alot 🙁 bad times.
Obviously the plan failed so ive started the gamstop process, i seem to keep getting sucked back into this awful addiction once the pain and regret wears off, feeling pretty beat up atm
had a free £30 bet come through, the last bet i would place as it was free but lost it as expected, even if i would of won i would of probably carried on until 0 anyway so hey-ho,, docs uploaded to gamstop, new leaf from 01 may no more gambling days at all, just need somethng else to fill the time
Hi,
Read you post and a couple of things spring to mind ... firstly, no criticism, as relapsing is just a click away for all of us. Secondly, it's not the end of the world ... I don't know your financial situation, and £300 is obviously a significant amount, but it's not life changing, whereas chasing it might be. Dust yourself down, accept it as one of those things, and don't let it spiral. Finally, you just need to do something a little different to put another barrier in place for when it might happen again, and Gamstop sounds like a good step forward. Don't get yourself sucked back into it ... if you stop now, it's a narrow escape rather than a big problem. Stay strong. Rich
8 days no bets, most of the sharp regret and anxiety feelings gone, did a couple of carboot sales on sun and monday to get myself out and about, feeling ok. Docs uploaded to gamstop but no confirmation email yet.
Hi Richy244, I was reading your previous posts from the other threads. Depression, boredom, social anxiety, lonliness and rejection. I can relate to all of them like 110%. I suffer everyday from them. Gambling helped me forget things at the beginning and you already know what happened next when I gambled. Good luck to you.
196 days, self exclusion scheme with gamstop prevents me from even attempting to set up a new online account. Managed to find some financial success with buying and selling car parts through a well known auction site. Not all doom and gloom.
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