Rock bottom so the only way is up

Day one and as stressed as I feel I feel that ounce better knowing I haven't gambled away a penny today that ive survived today sorted my youngest nursery changed hours at work and spent time with my kids so I am about to take a couple of sleepers to try get some sleep and face the day tomorrow

So day three feeling like I'm in a daze luckily I'm so busy through the day I don't think about gambling but it's this time that kills me kids are asleep and all I'm left with is my whirling head that just won't shut up so thought I'd pop in and have a read before I take a couple of sleepers .... All I want is peace peace of mind and for life not to be so god d**n s**t

Look after yourself and your kids you can get through this

tt welcome back and well done on recognising that you have a problem that needs addressing. I too am back having been giving up for the past 5 years (numerous relapses overy that time) so your are not alone. No one can tell you why you shouldn't gamble but you know how much gambling can take from you. Take your journey forward one day at a time and things will get better. Take care and stay strong for yourself and your children x

Hi tt1980,

Thanks for your post, and well done posting here again.

Obviously, we wish you well and would like you to recover completely, and I’m also glad that you haven’t given up trying to stop. We’re aware that trying to stop gambling is not easy, and that is why Gamcare is ready to help and support you every step of the way with advice on strategies to enable you to overcome your problematic gambling.

Pls. keep reading from our forum for more strategies to help you to stop gambling (apply all the strategies from people that you can identify with).

I’m also wondering if you’ve thought about counselling support to help you make sense of what is going on with you, and to find a way to move forward to a gamble free life. The counsellor will help you to explore various areas of your life, find out what your triggers are, and thus know how to manage them effectively.

Maybe you’d like to discuss your finances with your husband, and perhaps ask him to take control of all your finances until such time that you feel well recovered to manage your finances again.

Pls. try and join our live chats which is held every day and at different times; you can find the chat times from our Forum or, you can contact our free phone Helpline on: 0808 8020 133, and request for information on that.

Pls. do try to look after yourself and the children; put the children first. In case you feel desperate for food items, you can contact your local food bank for some help too.

My best wishes to you, and pls. keep posting.

Kind regards,

Beatrice

Firstly thank you all for your kind words of support today I haven't stopped since 6 I've only just sat down work all day then shopping for my sister's buffet with her then started the buffet she's 40 tomorrow and bless her she has given me money to be able to attend her party was a big kick in the teeth for me and after a few tears I pulled myself together I know I have to keep focused once my tax credits etc are sorted I can't afford to escape into that world even for a second my kids only have me to fend for them and I only them now so day 4 is and will be gamble free