Go for it mate. Writing can be very rewarding.
I'm more into science fiction, paranormal sort of stuff. I've got a novel in the works as well but it's been "in the works" for a while. I've got a short novel published and some good feedback on it.
What sort of stuff do you like reading/writing?
On gambling, it's been keeping me awake the last couple of nights. I keep thinking about how my losses might just be bad luck and maybe I can beat the system.
Why is my own brain trying to stitch me up?!?
Keep going mate please FFS. I have had to reset my clock today and it's horrible.
I love science fiction. Would love to be able to get the thing finished but we will see.
Have you read birdbox by josh malerman? It's a bit of a love it or hate it book, but I thought it was one of the best books I have read in ages.
Stay strong my friend and show the rest of us how it's done!
scothed wrote: Go for it mate. Writing can be very rewarding. I'm more into science fiction, paranormal sort of stuff. I've got a novel in the works as well but it's been "in the works" for a while. I've got a short novel published and some good feedback on it. What sort of stuff do you like reading/writing? On gambling, it's been keeping me awake the last couple of nights. I keep thinking about how my losses might just be bad luck and maybe I can beat the system. Why is my own brain trying to stitch me up?!?
Gambling addiction is different for everyone in the same way as Cancer can be different to everyone. Just a different type of illness.
Some of those who have both illnesses die. Keep working at it.
Tryinghard wrote:
Keep going mate please FFS. I have had to reset my clock today and it's horrible.
I love science fiction. Would love to be able to get the thing finished but we will see.
Have you read birdbox by josh malerman? It's a bit of a love it or hate it book, but I thought it was one of the best books I have read in ages.
Stay strong my friend and show the rest of us how it's done!
I haven't heard of it, but I shall put it on my list.
I'm reading a book for an author I know at the moment, so I can review it on my website. Got about a hundred books on my list of things to read lol
Alright mate? How's tricks? you still doing ok?
China mieville is an author i would definately check out if your into sci fi. Railsea and new crubizon (I think that's how you spell it!) are well worth reading!
i read about two books a week, if you have anything you recommend then I will probably read it!
stay strong friend.
So I'm in day 13 and going ok. Still some distrubed sleep and also a few dreams about gambling, which is bizarre.
It can also be difficult in my office as almost everyone I get on with gambles on the football online.
Moving forward I've just had a load of dvds and books delivered, that my girlfriend treated us both to. Should have a fair bit to keep busy.
Stay strong everyone - one day at a time.
Another day down; another day without gambling.
Day 16 and no gambling.
I'm allowing myself to feel a little bit of pride as I've been very stressed out recently, to the extent I thought I was on the verge of a heart attack earlier but I know it was just a panic attack. However, despite this I haven't gambled. I've turned to my closest and confided and vented to them.
I'm off work for a little while now and am going to enjoy some relaxation. It's nice to have some money to spend on... well... whatever as opposed to chucking it at bookies.
Although I'm stressed, I do feel humbled when I read what some other people are going through. There's people on here with much worse circumstances and they are battling through it day by day, and those people have my humble admiration for their strength, because no one can ever truly know what it is like to fight this enemy.
If you're reading this and you are struggling please stay strong. Give yourself a pat on the back for another day free of gambling. If you've succombed to the urge then don't let losing one battle cost you the war. Tomorrow is a new battle and a chance to change everything.
Where there's life, there's hope.
Day 17 and still not gambled. It doesn't seem that long though.
It helps that my girlfriend is being so supportive. In the past she has threatened to leave me if I relapse but I think this time she means it. She hasn't been angry when she has said it, but more matter-of-fact; she doesn't want to live with someone who is a gambling addict.
It's nice that she sees the best in me, as opposed to dwelling on my weakness.
I'm still searching for that "buzz" though. I've not yet found something to replace it. Maybe I will never be able to replicate that feeling, but maybe that's a compromise for not feeling the despair and sickness one feels when the addiction is in control.
Well done on 17 days scothed, no we won't get another BUZZ like we had with gamblng, but do we really want a BUZZ that self destructs us, NO,
Abstaining and maintaining one day at a time gives us a gentle buzz lol, because we are actually winning at last, our lives back.
Keep strong.
Suzanne xx
Well done on 17 days mate. Keep going!
Another day done. Been kept busy as on a city break in Hamburg at the moment. Normally I would be on my phone every time we stopped looking at scores and bets, but not now.
Does anyone else dream about gambling? It happens to me fairly often. I will dream that I do it and feel shame. Sometimes when I wake that feeling lingers. It's a bit bizarre.
Another day free of gambling. It really helps reading this site and knowing that others are going through the same struggle.
Three weeks down. Seems like longer in some ways, but in other ways it has gone fairly quickly. This site has helped immensely, as I can put into words thoughts and feelings that I don't think non-addicts can understand.
It's going to be hard over the next few weeks as my girlfriend, who is my rock, is going away for two months. She has already put things in place to motivate me, including quotes and messages of support throughout the next few weeks of my diary. I've not read them as I want to be surprised but I'm hopeful it will be a big help
Day 24 and doing ok. A few little urges but I'm keeping busy and staying in control.
"Coming out" as a gambling addict to those closest definitely helped.
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