Good Afternoon Diary,
Day 49 - I think not posting for a while but keeping track of the days has served me well recently. I found my ability to encourage others and post regularly had deserted me. I came back here lost and hopeless.
I'm not sure a great deal has changed in the last 49 days other than I most certainly haven't made things any worse. My destiny is in my own hands this I know to be true.
In my first attempt at recovery I rode the storms and reached a state of solace. This time I feel the ride will be bumpier and those storms will rain down more frequently. They say it's a progressive illness, I would find that hard to dispute.
However, the positives are there, I can see hope. 49 days from my last bet and a new year ahead. Focussing on the positives is surely the only way.
Happy New Year to one and all.
Day 49 - Only Hope
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