sh*t Or Bust

Hi ya lizt.. Good to see your back! Obviously sorry to hear your suffering from flu (hopefully it wasn't too serious or anything like man flu!! 😉 ) but it was so much better to hear that as opposed to the alternative that you had gambled again.. Keep strong and i hope your back to 100% fitness soon.

Hey lizt - i hope that you are feeling a bit better but more importantly from personal experiences i hope that you haven't slipped back into the gambling trap. I know that when i stopped posting on the site regularly usually meant i was back in the grasps of the evil addiction. Keep moving forward and remember that you cant change what has happened already but you have total control of what is going to happen in the future

Hiya, just thought id check in and see how you are doing, hope you are ok ? Xx

Hi!! Ahhh ive been so poorly!! Flat on my back virtually. Sorry ive not posted just felt too ill. Still no gambling honestly. Have thought about it a few times but genuinely have not even logged on anyway or Googled new sites. Think I must be nearing two weeks now which is a massive achievement. Feeling a bit better today. Hope you're all doing ok xx

Sorry to hear that you haven't been feeling any better - hopefully you will be seeing an improvement soon. Sorry i wasn't accusing you of lying but i was judging you by own standards. I am still managing to stay away from it all and whilst i will be honest and own up to missing the buzz of it i am thriving healthwise in that im not thinking about it first thing in the morning and last thing at night... Im enjoying the boring lifestyle and long may it continue.. Get better soon lizt! NH

Hi all. Not been on for a while I've just felt too ill. The last few days I've started to feel better. Not sure if the illness was caused through all the stress of finally facing myself and seeing who i had become or that the universe stepped in and said right if you're gonna stop gambling we will make you ill to take your mind off it ha ha. Either way I've had lots of time to think and go over the last year's of my life and really look at where I've gone wrong. Gambling had become the most central thing in my life. Over my kids my job my friends and everyone close to me that I love. I would constantly look for ways to play times to play. All took me away from the people that should have been at the top of my list. I am now on day fourteen with no gambling. I still have some of last week's wages in my account. Looking at my bank statement and not seeing deposit after deposit thinking to myself my god what does my bank manager think of me feels amazing. I kind of feel normal!!!. I know that now im feeling better in myself that the temptations will come and as ive done so well maybe i can control it. I know that I can't control it i don't think an addiction so deep seated goes away in only a couple of weeks. I will stay strong with the help of everyone's words on here. If i feel like I'm going to fall i will log on here instead of searching for new sites. I have so much to live for. When you are caught up in this awful cycle you really don't feel like you have anything to live for only the next time you can get on line and try win that big one that will solve all your problems you don't really see that gambling is the problem i do now. It was so nice to order a pizza for me and the children without thinking i can't afford it or more often than not i would think well that's twenty quid for the slots. I know that some days are going to be harder than others but i can only focus on not gambling today. How's everyone doing out there hope you are keeping strong. Xx

Need help! I know you weren't and honestly if i had not been ill who knows. We've all been there saying we will never do it again and then you wake up and realise that you have and can't believe you've done it again. It almost feels like someone else takes over your mind and you're gone. I hope you're doing ok out there and yes the boring stuff seems to have taken on a new beauty in my eyes. Although looking around my house i could dearly use a cleaning fairy!! Ha. Xx

I know what you mean - i am dreading the day that will happen someday and i wake up and all i want to do is go out and play virtual horses/dogs -on the fobts. That's why i have put the blocks in place so when the day arrives there is no way i can act on it. How are you finding the anti-depressants - are they talking the edge of things for u?

I think they are helping definitely. I'm not as down and tearful as i was. Infact i really feel quite positive . Even though I have thought about gambling remembering how good i feel not gambling has made the decision for me. It's seems it's been a long long time that anything else has come before my gambling but I'm hoping this will be it for me. There is no way I can go back. Xx

I went for a drive tonight to the beach and as i was walking along the promenade and past the arcades i had momentary thoughts of playing the slots ... Before i was able to act on this i took a walk in around the arcade and the picture of peoples desperation and zombie like state made me turn around and walk straight back out. Seeing the desperation has made me more determined - i was just saying earlier how i thought that i would never fall back into the trap and simply hours later i almost did... Makes me think how much i need to be aware at all times - sorry for rambling on but just wanted to share a thought...

Have you got blocks put in place so if/when a thought of gambling comes on you there is nothing you can do about it. I have self excluded from all bookies within 25 miles of where i live and i know that i will never gamble online (lost 7500 in the space of a few months a few years ago and im 100% it will never happen again. I told those close to me about my two major slip ups and to be honest it was the best thing i ever did!

Hi lizt

Problem with forum this morning I think lol

Second post to you

Well done on abstaining and maintaining and yes a tenner does go a long way in real money terms that is 70 quid a week 280 a month we are winning that amount now how positive is that

Suzanne x

Hi ya. Well done on not gambling. It must have been quite an eye opener to see the other people in that same trance like state that we've all been in just one more tenner. It's so sad. The urges are going to be with us a long time i think and the thoughts of being able to control it which I know i can't. What's the phrase. We cannot win because we cannot stop. I have excluded myself from as many online sites as i can think of. I know I've signed up for a lot more for free money but I can't remember. I have written on another post that i have been thinking about all the things you can do with ten pounds. There's a lot you can do but it's gone in seconds when you're gambling. I'm going to write down all the things you can do with ten twenty fifty hundred etc. Will be horrifying to see how many holidays ive missed out on on one night's binge but online it's not even like real money just numbers. Only when you check you balance the next day does it then become very real. !! Here's to more amd more gamble free days and normal life. well done again on seeing it from the outside and not gambling. We can beat this horrible illness xx

Hi it says you posted but i can't see it?

Absolutely right Suzanne. I really do feel that for the first time in years that this is winning. Xx