Sick of this s * i t .

Hi all again. I have been trying so hard to stop but at least once a week. I have been in the bookie and had a bet. Not losing very much, but i cant help myself. Tryed everything and now i just think i will have to get used to betting once or twice a week. Soz im no good at this stopping thing.

carl.

Hi Carl,

I'm bouncing back from my own gambling setback too mate, I didn't lose anything, managed to stop a little up (not enough up for a taxi home from town on a night out!) but still it worries me that I couldn't resist the temptation.

You mention that you're gambling much less than you used to be. My mum "quit" smoking about 15 years ago, but still has one or two a week, as she could never stop it entirely.

Keep trying mate, and don't apologise, you have no-one to apologise to on here.

All the best

Ryan

ive been trying my best to stop gambling over the past few days. changed my bank where my wage goes in. i can only draw out 50 pound instead of 300 in the other one a day.

i did lose 20 pound this morning on a website but i have now self excluded from this and many more i cant get on all the ones i know now.

i just dont know whats wrong with me. im trying for a fresh start from 2moz 1st nov. i never used to be like this money was hard to come by and i used to save like mad.

i would like if possible your mesures to stop. as i cant go on its making me crazy and stressed. carl

Hi mate, glad to see you back and really sorry to hear that you are still finding this tough.

But you seem to have made small steps towards beating this like self excluding yourself from that website as soon as you realised that you really don't want to go on it any more.

And that must have been a bit of a minor relief for you.

Small steps like these WILL go a long way towards your recovery to a better life. A fresh start sounds like a great idea and going through the whole of November will set you up really nicely for Christmas, both money and self-belief wise.

Keep posting mate if it helps, we are all here to listen.

Have a great gamble free week

Getting There (aka November!)

thanks for ur message getting there.

I'm on day 2 today. i do have some money in the bank but lol no urge to gamble it.

i had to go pass 2 bookies yesterday but never went in. im trying my best but as novermber goes im gamble free.

i had a lapse. i was out shopping and i went in the bookies and lost. i felt so sick and sad and it stressed me out for the rest of the day. It was only £10 but a cud have got something with that.

I did 3 days without going in. i know i can do it.

Been trying to behave myself for the last week. only being able to draw out £50 a day is helping. i try not to have any money on me after work now maybe a few quid no more. then i dont get the urge. Today after work i went into the bookies lol i stood there and thought. i cant be asred and walked out. i only had £1.90 on me lol. i got some hobknobs and seabrook crisps with that. tryin my best at all time. carl.

well i blew more money today. i give up. but can never give giving up. 5 years ago i never bet. i need to get back to that. i used to be additcted to scratch cards. so i know i can do it. not touch one of them for years. I think out of sight out of mind. my new thing i cant go near a bookies or even look at one. end of the year is coming so i gotta stop by then.

Hey carlsimon, we all have lapses, just dust yourself off and start again. It is not easy, if it was we all wouldn't be on here.

Keep strong and take care x

Well since that monday i havnt bet. 8DAYS. prob because i have been on hol, but there where temptations. there was a big casino there but never went. Feeling like out of sight outa mind is a good thing for me. feeling better and happyier. hope u all r 2.

Well its my 12th day of not gambling today.

I had to go into town and had a really bad urge to go in the bookies. But i would not let my body walk in. Feel great. this is the longest i have gone for the whole year. Got my stuff in town and drove home happy no stress.

Hi im here again lol. hope to be here more and not on the machines. I lost loads last year and this year i wanna lose nothing. Gonna start from today as yesterday i lost. but as no money all week till fri the first 5 days will be easy.

I pray for us all that this thing goes away and we all live a happy life stress free.

good luck all xx

Now then Carlsimon,

Hope you and Toby are good, just had a read through your diary and you seem to be in a similar position to me. We both want to stop and have put blocks in place to help us do so, this stops us from gambling on a daily basis BUT we then blow it and binge once in a while. Although this means we are gambling less the pain is just as bad if not worse because WE KNOW WE ARE COMPULSIVE GAMBLERS.

Have you thought any more about self exclusion from the bookies?

Right dust ourselves down and let’s get back to it, any support drop us a line on my diary.

i cant believe it i just wasted £20 on the net. i feel so *** off with myself. i just self excluded on another 2 sites. I dont think there are any more on the net i can get on. so sick of this really really mad. broken promises and losing money makes me mad.

Morning all.

Im on day 4. cant believe i have done 4days.

Yesterday i was in town after work with money in my wallet and my bank card on me. and i didnt go in the bookies. feeling better with myself. also got paid so i have money in the bank at the mo. Keeping off internet gambling. as thats where you can lose so much money.

It doesnt feel like money when u bet online and lose thousands. and then you go food shopping and look for the cheapest food u can find. yesterday i spoiled myself and got better than normal food. And im enjoyng eating it and it only can to £20.

Ive just got to get through this next week and then im on hol in tunisa for 2 weeks. so no gambling there. if i can do it, it will be the longest i have not gambled in a year.

Also i have opened a post office saving account with a passbook no card. any spare money i dont need im gonna put in there. as you have to go to the post office to get it out. It will stop me gambling online with savings.

i have been reading loads of diaries on here and i know how u all feel it is so hard to stop. i have no one special in my life. things are the same all the time this is one time i can do it for myself to make me happier.

i will be so much better off.

carl.