Its starting again, I need to get a grip, the bad old habits are slowing happening again, the odd tenner becoming a daily occurrence, a major blow out is just around the corner, there`s no point because I can`t walk away when I`m ahead. So what if everything is P***ing me off, I can`t just keep heading for the comfort blanket of the bookies. Jesus Christ gambling on credit card what a numpty.
Rents.
Fella there is no cure, no medicine to stop us. Our mantra is always the same.
I cannot win because i cannot stop. The bottom line is it is down to making a choice.
For me that is total abstinence because that way what is on offer is i actually win. Ironic as i threw twenty years hard earnt at it before i realised there is a way to win. To arrest the gambling.
Put some blocks in place, gift yourself some thinking time, you can make the right choice.
Be proud for coming back, the doors revolve, stick around recovery is to be enjoyed, the gift that keeps giving.
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Hi Rents
There is a solution to our problem you just have to want it more than you want to gamble! Try speaking to someone at Gamcare 0808 8020 133 for some practical ideas and tips on how to get on board this wagon. Stick close to this forum and try to express how you are feeling on a daily basis. Just taking the first step is the hardest and you've done that. Keep at it and never give up giving up! Take care
Cheers Duncan & Smiler, no choice but to dust myself down & try & keep to the straight & narrow. Most of the blocks are in place but lets face it if I want to gamble I`ll usually find a way. Spent four hours in a bookies yesterday that I`m meant to be excluded from! Could have gambled today but really couldn`t be bothered. What`s the bloody point, only leads to more pain & anguish. Let`s try & get to the end of January & see where my head is then.
Trying to keep busy, walked the dog & went for a jog though I think Mo is safe for a while. Lets dwell on the positives 3 or 4 gambling days out of the last ninety ain`t bad but it only takes one blow out to be back at square one. Need to find that extra something to finally say enough is enough but after 30 years of looking for the answer it seems as far away as ever. Onwards & upwards!
Rents
fella you follow my chain of thought when you write that there are positives to take away from your journey so far.
for me when I relapsed in october my counting went back to day 1, I believe this way I don't kid myself in any form that a punt is acceptable, but I do acknowledge that my journey began in january 2012 and I took a huge lesson from those three hours of madness when I went back at it.
Surely it is about ensuring those mistakes are not made again, that ultimatly recovery is the one way we the compulsive gambler can actually win.
for twenty years I thought the answer was to be found in a punt
Today I know the answer lays in a choice
One each and every one of us has to make each day however many days abstinence are behind us.
No Bet today
To abstain and maintain.
duncs stepping forward never back.
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