Started gambling again!!!

Mainly me.. He is actually not as bad as me.. I just don't know when to stop.. He gamble more when I lose the money with gambling.. I just don't know what to do any more.. But I'm will have to stop gambling before I have no future 🙁

iDay 2..

Feeling low of the low.. I don't know what to do.. All I've been thinking about is how am I going to get money for Thailand and having dark thoughts in my head. I feel very sick. I've let everyone I love down.

Have you sought out help from Gamcare? Counselling?

Yes I have. I think I will need counselling once I'm back from my holiday. I want to be in a better place than this. I will have to get some else to take over my financial situation. The less control I have the better it will be.

Day 4,

No gambling. Don't want to gamble, still feeling stupid and ashamed.

Day 5, no gambling.

Still thinking about the money I have lost, which I have been saving for my holiday. Would of have few grand and now I'm owing money!! Makes I'm angry and sad!

Hi yo yo, I feel your pain, I myself have spent many years gambling my life away along with everyone else here. One thing you do need to do and I'm speaking from experience as have quit before is to forget about the past,the money lost and stop beating yourself up over it, you are worth more than that.. And it gets you now where, it's those thoughts that make us cgs lose control.

stay strong and determined you can beat this, the best thing I have done is handed my finances to someone else. Does your parents know??

TODAY I CHOOSE TO SAVE MY MONEY FOR MY FUTURE HAPPINESS

My parents knows about my gambling but not about this resent one because I'm too ashamed, plus my mum said she would kick me out the house if I do it again. So I'm too afraid to tell her. I have told my trusted ex mother who is happy to help with my finances. So I will sort everything out when I get back from Thailand. I'm just annoyed at my self that now I have to borrow money for Thailand. I did have enough money and now I owe money to friends..

Thanks for ur wise word weaslehawk x

Day 6,

Feeling down not because I want to gamble! Because I don't feel supported by my boyfriend, he's still upset with me because I have gamble away our money. I feel bad and sad. Wish he would support me through the this. He himself does gamble. It's hard when both of us gamble and I want to quit gambling. It's gonna be a tough road for me! But I have to do it for me. Just feeling so low right now!! Glad I got this diary so I can write down my feelings!!

I will show him that I can quit gambling. I also want him to quit gambling but I think he knows he also got a gambling problem too.

Hi ya, I'm sure your bf will come round eventually, he obviously feels hurt at the moment and your holiday in Thailand will help you both relax and find yourselves! It must be hard as he gambles as well, can you convince him to support you by giving up as well, as a team you would really be able to help each other on those rough days!!!

i hope you have a good holiday and comeback stronger than ever.

TODAY I CHOOSE TO SAVE MY MONEY FOR MY FUTURE HAPPINESS

Hopefully we are able to move forward together and fight this together. I'm really determined this time. Things are going to be different after I get back from my holiday. Thank you for ur support Weaslehawk 🙂 x

Hopefully things will look up soon x

I hope you both work together to beat this addiction. Us cg need every help we can get at the start. Enjoy youre holiday and return refreshed and ready to stop gambling. I with you both well .