Hi everyone, I guess I am on here, because this is the only place where I have a hope people may understand me and help me with their advice. I guess when you start this diary you are at rock bottom emotionally and probably financially - I am. To-day it is too raw to explain in too much detail what has happened to me, in time in time. Baby steps one at a time (one gamecare advisor said to me, they have been very supportive) . So a post a day (except week-ends when I see my girlfriend), there's lots to be written. For now functioning on a daily basis since Monday is a priority. A little insight into the problem, have been gambling since 2008/9 on FOTB's and on-line, lost my life savings chasing those losses. For me this has left me severley emotionally depressed, however I am seeing a counsellor on Wednesday, live in hope they can improve my mental state. Post again Monday.
Hi there. Well thank you for your post and can tell that you really up for the fight to beat this demon. Glad you found your way here, this place offers life...better life surrounded with people who won't judge but will understand you instead . little tiny steps as you said yourself, long road ahead my friend but it is worth that walk. Freedom at the end of it 🙂 keep making the right choice and keep being true to yourself. You are worth better life and it surely has no gambling in it. Rooting for you. By the way good going with counselling, i am sure it will help you massively on a way. Take care. S x
Thanks Sandra for your kind post. I have had a decent weekend with my girlfriend (she thinks i have been gamble free for six months i really wish I had been) By now normally i would have been on the FOTB's on the way home from hers, feels strange tonight to have not played them, tonight I actually havn't missed them, but i am missing having money in my pocket. I will start my story tomorrow, as Sunday is the end of the week-end and I would like a partial nights sleep, if I start my horror story, there wont be any sleep. So i hope anyone who is reading this has a gamble free night and some decent sleep. Nite Paul
Hi to all on Gamcare today - hope this site and its threads are taking us all in the right direction. This is Day 7 for me of no more gambling, as I said last night I am not missing the gambling just the lack of spending money. So Day 1 properly of my diary its been told in parts before (then i relapsed - no relapsing this time). It started in 2008 with a quick visit to the bookies to pick up my weekly football coupon (which I no longer do) I/we noticed the FOTB machine in the corner, ambled over and wow 'roulette flashing lights' put £2.00 in came out with £3.00. It should be said from the outset my partner hated these machines, but me ........................... soon I was going back every week, then every day (£2.00 soon becoming £50.00). It should be said at this point that I did have a quite large amount of easily available 'withdrawal bank cash' to me (which for anyone on this site is a bad idea - note for the future). This money was to fund my retirement so a little lost here and there at my age of 57 did not seem to matter (I have no dependants and live by myself). At this point i should have re-alised that I did not like losing, for I began to plough hundreds into the machines in order to recover my deposits and at least break-even, going from shop to shop (even small town to town ridiculous !) But the funds were starting to slip away (my head said enough's enough cut take your losses) but my body kept taking me to those bookies doors, moving into 2010-2012 forty thousands pounds had gone, still in a good financial position at that point but ........................................... I am lucky still to have my job which is where I am at the moment so I need to work for the rest of the day, will be back tomorrow with more of the disaster story (by typing and self-expunging this maybe I will get some of the depression out of my body)
Hi everyone out there with the same issues as me (lost too much too gambling), just having difficulty in even putting thoughts into this forum at moment, the sheer enormity of what i have done is beginning to hit home. Not gambled for 10 days now, not been happy for ten days either (thats cause the funds have all gone). Can't concentrate on my job, just really P....d off. Does it get any better, when your disposable income is next to nothing? Sorry for this miserable thread but thats how I feel right now.
Morning everyone its Friday, trying to be positive, the weekend is coming, its Day 11 of no more gambling, I read on here today Day 200 is a real target, i'm really going to try and achieve that. Hope we all have a gamble free week-end.
Hi lost,
Well done on 11 days, keep going and stay strong.
Suzanne xx
Hiya Lost!
I hope you have a fab gamble free weekend xx you can do this!! Xx
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