It's extremely common for gambaling addicts to have dreams of gambling and waking up remorseful. Especially in the earlier day's. It's because it's on your mind still.
Well done on the journey do far
Cheers Deano
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Day 20
​That's right... 20! I've amazed myself!
​Work was pretty quiet today. Easy money! There were just two of us working and we spent most of the morning standing around singing 80's classics! Good times eh?!
​Not in till 5pm tomorrow so I'll squeeze a quick run in tonight and a gym session in the morning. Gotta stick at it!
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Day 22- 02:00
​Just back from work... T'was a late one! Gamble free still, alcohol free still and still sticking in with the training. My chest and arms are aching from lifting weights! Run day tomorrow (or later today, as it's past midnight).
​Goodnight people,
​Den.
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Hey Denzil, just dropping by to say well done on your 22 days. Sounds like you have come a really long way in this three weeks. As you say, you will face another hurdle come payday, but it sounds like your really focused so I'm sure you will smash it.
I keep telling myself I need to get out running more and improve my 10km time. Might try and hit the Tarmac this weekend.
All the best, and remember we can't win as we can't stop.
RA
Thanks for the support RA,
​Get yourself out running more... It's good!
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Day 23
​Got my payslip today for this months wage. I'll get just over £900 on Tuesday. I'm sick of being skint so looking forward to it! I can't even get a bus to work if it's raining at the moment. I'm really not worried about having money again. Feeling like I've got a good non-gambing head on me just now.
​Almost hit my 25 days target! Just one day and 31 minutes to go! I may celebrate by buying some new gym gear on Tuesday. My current clothing is a bit tatty!
​Off home now for a shower. Been working all day and I stink!
​Den
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Day 25
​Target achieved! Next target: 50 days.
​Munching on some corn flakes as I type now... Meeting a friend to run in 20 minutes so cutting things a bit fine!
​It's Monday morning, I'm happy and I'm gamble free! Super.
​Den.
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Hey mate. Well done. keep this run going. The rewards will be great. i am only on day 2 but i have put measure in place to stop for good this time. Feeling postive. Keep it up matey.
Thanks No problem.
​The run was good!
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Day 26
​Payday! I have money!!! About time... Been to the shop and got some much needed food stuffs in, topped up my phone and now heading to pay my half marathon entry fee before working at ten. Oh, and I've been for a swim already as well! Busy morning!
​One thing for sure is that no bookmakers or online casinos will be seeing one penny of my money!
​Den.
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I caved. I gambled... And the worst thing is I won. I'm £40 up and that's going to make it d**n near impossible to stay away. I'm so p*s sed off with myself. Can't believe how weak I can be.
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And there we go. I've lost a f****n fortune. What is the point?
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Back to day one again. I feel like a total failure. Feel like it would be easier if I was sent to prison for not paying my debts. I'm no use to anyone in the real world.
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Sorry to hear about your replapse Denzil. Take for you're feeling now and keep hold of that awful feeling and that you never want to be in this position again. Money is great, but evil when you're a ga. something I've to trial yet...pay day Friday! Maybe read diaries of those who have replapsed and take some advice off them. I do hope you can battle this head on, although I know you'll be feeling pretty low at the moment. Take Care C x
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