Starting again at day 1 :(

Hi Jilfe, thanks for your thread this morning, glad u supported the team on Saturday, hope they won. Glad you remained gamble free over the week-end. I guess you are young enough to put all this gambling behind you if you really wish ? Are you debt free (sorry u dont have to answer that if u dont want to) if so I guess you are at the age to find other things to make you happy ? Is your relationship strong, maybe you should do an extra social thing together as a couple ? Iv'e had a bit of a rant tonight about my unhappiness on my 'overcome problem gambling section', feelin sorry for myself, I guess i'll have to return to the odd alcoholic drink to get me through the nite.

Post soon Ridy

had an argument with my partner tonight, in the house on my own for a while getting massive urges, I would always gamble in this situation to escape...not been in this situation yet whilst having the blocker for online sites, not enjoying dealing with my emotions 🙁

Jilfe, just read your post, dont gamble you cant afford too can you?, if you dont like wine now is the time to start, its a lot cheaper than gambling !! Go and have a drink now if there is none in the house go and buy some it will relax you. DONT GAMBLE, you know where it will lead - LOSSES. i am going to do some housework for an hour, I will be back to see if you have posted - NO GAMBLING !!

Hi just want to offer you my support I'm only on day two but want to send you lots of strength,

Just read your recent post 🙁 get up and do something keep busy go to bed or a walk even housework, don't gamble you will feel much worse tomorrow if you do

keep going Hollie xx

Thanks Rideyobike and Hollie for your support. I didn't gamble, I watched some TV, it wasn't easy but I got through it 🙂 now on day 8, got my appointment with my gamcare councellor at lunch which should help me today, I haven't seen her for 2 weeks and I've been through alot since then.

Had a weird thought this morning, I really wanted to text someone and knew I shouldn't and had to stop myself from doing it but I really wanted to do it and all of a sudden it felt like an urge like I get with gambling. It made me realise there is definatley deeper reasons why I gamble which I intend to get to the bottom of.

Well done Hollie for getting to day 2, I'm not much further on myself but being on this website really helps to go through it with others in the same situation. I will try to find your story 🙂

Hope you both have a lovely gamble free day 🙂 x

Just a quick reply to say well done, for not gambling last nite and I hope it goes well with the counsellor later, be thinking of you.

had a great day today and appointment with my counselor, have realized a lot of my gambling is due to hating being on my own. Need to enjoy my own company and spending time on my own. Task for this week 3 things that would make me happy/happier...got to think about that 1!

Lovely night out for a meal and watched the fireworks, got John Bishop tickets for my gran & grandad really want to go myself but the tickets are all sold out, put an advert looking for some and managed to get 2, my grandad has cancer at the minute so it could be that only chance they get, it is something they have always wanted to do....has made me feel really good doing something for others and not being selfish as I would love to see him but I don't mind aslong as they get to see him, maybe I could do more for others

Day 9...I think, get mixed up 🙂 dont really mind aslong as I'm not gambling. Busy today, and netball tonight, hope my ankel holds up, big game on Sunday also. Getting a gym membership today, plan to go to the gym 3 times per week plus have netball 2 x per week should b fit as a fiddle soon and hopefully feel better in myself and avoid gambling at all costs. 1 month gym membership for £25 could spend that in a minute gambling - spend money on better things 🙂

Day 10, stressful day today but not thought about gambling, not had time. Looking forward to chilling out tonight and positive I can beat gambling this time 🙂

Hi jillfe

Sorry to hear you've had a stressful day 🙁

But also happy to hear you've had a gamble free day 🙂 hope you have a relaxing chilled out evening

Well done on 10 days Hollie xx

Hope you've had a nice chilled out evening. Great to have you on the new thread. Well done on getting to double figures. One day at a time. All you can do is take on what's in front of you, one day at a time. Take care and see you at the next check in.

Thanks Hollie and Dave, really appreciate the support, hope you both have a lovely weekend.

Day 11, made it to day 13 last time and gave in to the demon! This time feels so much different and I feel safer having the blocker online so far so good. Thinking about 3 things that can make me happy and being realistic....1 - suceeding to beat something that has ruled my life for so many years. 2 - having a focus for the future career wise and working my b*m of to get it. 3 making other people happy makes me happy.For the short term these will be my goals. Have a nice weekend everyone x

Hi Jillfe, glad you are making some progress against the dreaded addication, i am too looking forward to the week-end. When we post on Monday i know now I won't have gambled (not tryin to sound off, its just that i am absolutely terrified of startin again after making such a massive effort to stop.) I hope you are with me on this, you have done so well so far, you dont want to down that rocky road again.

We both know how bad it is too lose, so Gamble free week-end defo !! Post Monday - Ridy

Most definatley promise to post on Monday and not have gambled Ridey. It's too hard and causes too much pain to go back to the start at day 1....I vow to myself I will never give up giving up. We can do this 🙂

Hi all and self 🙂 gamble free weekend, been that busy not had a minute to think, although gambling did swoop though my mind yesterday but it was quick and painless, would have caused pain had I gambled tho we all know that. 2 weeks ago today was the final and last time I gambled, I am looking forward to pay day this month not to have money to gamble but to try and get rid of some of the debt the years of gambling has left me in. Feeling good and determined this is my life and I am going to own it, not gambling.