DAY 16 - Had my counselling appointment yesterday, all the way through it I was getting urges to gamble it was weird, never had that before. I was planning on gambling when I get paid, over christmas in my head, not good! feeling straighter headed today. Heard on the radio this morning a lot of people will turn to gambling over christmas to try and get money to fund christmas and see a way of debt....remember you are in debt because of gambling woman, don't do it!!
Hey angel,
Well done on 16 days and you are so right, gambling is not gonna help financially...Especially, when we have a problem..we can't stop!! So wise choice is not even try.
Be proud of yourself, ride the storm of urges and take it day at a time.
Wish you all the best and sending strength your way 🙂
Take care
Sandra x
DAY 20 - WOW. really pleased with myself, it doesn't seem 20 days ago since I had my last slip and spent about £1000, I need to remember how i have felt this month and how hard it has been after I lost everything. It's pay day in 2 days got to get all of my christmas shopping done, practically all sorted on the food side for christmas day, its a long month until next pay day so extremely important I do not gamble.
DAY 21 - pay day tomorrow. still don't know if I can get online sites as haven't tried and don't intend to in my head I can't. Don't be stupid enough you know you have to save now for the one thing you have always wanted!
DAY 23 - got paid yesterday and have money in the bank so this is when times are risky for me gambling. I don't know if I can get on any online sites, I hope not if I ever get the urge to try. Had a quick thought about gambling last night but it soon went. Went Christmas shopping yesterday almost got everything sorted and still have some money to get me through the month. Let me stay strong, 23 days is great for me, well done.
Thanks Rainman really appreciate your words 🙂
DAY 24 - god never thought i'd get to say day 24, doing so well but have to keep my guard up as this is an extremely risky time, I have money in the bank and time off work coming up, i can do this 😉 worked out I have just over £400 to do me until 25th Jan if I gamble the consequences could be devestating as I could spend that in no time and not think twice whilst doing it. Don't start don't let the gambling urges win, u win by having control of them. Make it to 6th Jan and I can make it through the rest of my life.
DAY 1 - What an idiot! I'm so angry with myself. Why oh why do I keep doing it. Spent about £700 on friday and last night. Not left myself with enough in the bank for bills, no money over christmas and new year and don't get paid until 25th jan. Cancelled a couple of direct debits, I am just getting myself into more and more s**t and I can't see anyway out! Enquired about going to rehab as I can't see any other option but the cost for that is too much if your not entitled to it on the NHS. My heads done right in. Now I have to suffer for another month, especially over christmas coz of my own stupidity and greed of gambling 🙁
Haven't been on here for a few weeks. When I was looking for my diary and it is under recovery diary I thought to myself why have I put something in as a recovery diary as I don't feel 1 bit that I am recovering from this dreadful addiction. When I have money I gamble. I loose, have all good intentions of not gambling again until I have money and go through the pain again and again. I know it is only me that can put a stop to this but I don't feel like I am strong enough to beat it I am tired of going round in stupid circles time and time again coming on here and starting at day 1 again knowing that I'll prob never make it past 2 months. I have all of the information I have all of the knowledge I have read and learnt what I can about this thing but yet still I can't beat it. Why is the question. Don't even know what day I am on at the minute to be honest I don't really care coz for me counting days aint do me any good. Built up to Christmas for 2 months had a cr** one, borrowed money lot to pay out when I get paid.....what is the point, all this S***e coz of gambling, will I ever learn!
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