Starting second day in to my recovery

OK so day 3...

Last night my brother came over and we had a right laugh, which was great as I forgot about everything that happened at this moment in time.

Slept really well and feel much more positive today, yes I've thought about what I did a couple of times but there's no urges to gamble.

Kept myself busy again and generally enjoying my day which is good.

The best thinking is knowing you can't go back on what you did, you can only go forward knowing that if you stay strong your future will be brighter and more stress free without the gambling, because gambling is stressful whether you win or lose.

Gambling becomes an addiction, and addiction is the key to keep us wanting more. Understand how the addiction attacks you and then work out how to beat it, you can do it Meef.

So day 7,

Thanks for your comment Smashed appreciate it.

Missed a few days on the diary as I have been busy with work etc.

Currently away with family for the weekend in Wales which will I'm looking forward to the relaxing and work Free days ahead.

So, every day gets better as it does after a loss, getting back to my normal self, I must admit I have had the odd thought of gambling in my head, but not the urge to gamble, don't know how to explain that exactly it's more "what if" situation in my mind.
I still think to myself what an idiot for losing the money but think about it less often.

I know I can go gamble free I just need to remind myself I don't need it in my life and in a moment where you would fill your free time with it replace it with another activity.

I have just started up a second business and really want to make it successful and at the moment it is keeping me busy.

I really want to look back on this massive mistake in my life and be able to say I beat it!

I hope everyone else is doing well in their recoveries, stay strong.

Been gambling again and tonight was the last straw, I'm so disappointed in myself it's unreal.
I am sending my wife every spare bit of money every payday now as I don't spend my money on anything else tbh.

I am going to cut off any possible way of gambling.

So I guess this is day 1 again, what a horrible feeling, no idea why I keep putting myself through this!

Keep on going MeefUK... the cycle of trying to quit over and over is so common amongst us cgs and many people do succeed. We all can. I am also continuing on with the determination to keep on trying. Just started a new diary. Good that you are here. Mornings can be renewals. tara2

Thank you Tara, so day 1, waiting for money to hit my account so I can pay towards debts and send my wife as much money as possible to keep it away from me.

Crazy how I want to sort debts etc when I have less money but when I gamble I don't think to be sensible.

I know as each day passes it will get better but next few days are going to hurt inside.

Looking back, I didn't make enough effort with my diary and I'm a let down on other members decent attempts, I will do it this time.
I will do my best to do my diary entry every day.
I must start to enjoy life as its meant to be enjoyed, not sneakily logging in for a gamble near on every night!!

I've gone a year gamble free previously so I can do better!