Starting yet again.....

That's the spirit put the past behind you... what's done is done. You could try putting some blocking software on the device you normally gamble on. It can help through the early days.

For me I replaced gambling with exercise. It does help to find something else to do at those times when you'd normally be gambling. Your not a weak person its just that gambling has got a hold of you. Its an addiction just like any other addiction and it gets under our skin. You can forgive yourself and move forward as you say..one day at a time only. Keep posting.. regards.. S.A 🙂

Thanks for your comments S.A. I feel really low today just want to cry, trying to use all my strength to stay strong, I would like to replace gambling with exercise as you have, my problem is in the school hols I have 2 kids that need me around to look after them, like now I feel like going out for a run but can't until my husband finishes work. Been for a walk this morning with the kids but now they are playing a game together. Once the kids go back to school let the fitness regime commence lol. Anyway staying strong for today J x

Hi jaz - As S.A. says - one day at a time, and don't be too hard on yourself as we have all been there. Hope you can get to do some exercise - I have been doing so much more since starting my journey to sanity: gardening, sewing, reading all those books which had piled up unread, in short - getting my old life back, and I feel so much better for it.

Best wishes for your journey - you can do it!

Joanna

thanks Joanna, your comments mean so much. Day 3 today going to keep busy with the kids before they go back to school & for today no gambling.... J x

I'm still here and gamble free, Day 5 today, kept busy today. I will remain strong and not gamble a day at a time, stay strong everyone J x

Well done Jaz. You are so on your way to a better life. Day 5 is quite an achievement. I have one son whom I love dearly. Nothing however could have prepared me for the lack of freedom I would feel. Eventually it felt like I did not have a life of my own..kinda like I was living someone else's life. It's hard but the kids will be back at school soon and then you can find something for you which you will enjoy..may be it will be exercise or maybe doing coffee with a mate but it will be for you. Keep working at your recovery you are doing brill!!!

HI,

I got two children as well,they both know that i used to spend a fortune in gambling , 115 days no smoking no gambling and my wife and children are much more happier and i got fat!!!so life is good,hard to lear but good enough for the effort ,its not a victory yet cause this beast its not easy to beat!!!but im up 2 nill in the first half!!!so keep strong ok?

Thanks for your comments guys, day 6 today been really busy at work so no thoughts of gambling, day off tomorrow so will keep strong J x

Day 7, 1 whole week, I usually give in about now so trying really hard to remain strong, I am staying determined one day at a time. Having lots of urges this morning, going to log off and stay away from any computer in the house. Keep strong everyone J x

Hi Jaz thank you for posting on my thread. I feel a little better. I have been foolish but now that my cards are maxed out I can cut them up and start again. Every morning we wake up is a new day with endless possibilities and gambling it just one of them . Today. I prayed a lot. I just found a site on line and prayed out loud . It helped give me a more positive outlook.yeah we gambled and we lost. People have lost their entire life savings in bad business ventures and brushed themselves down and started again. And so it is with us. I am not going to allow myself to think of the money lost as gambled but a bad 'venture' that I need to find something new to replace. I think when we think of it as money we lost we feel if we chase after it it will come back. So yesterday's gone, and the money ventured is gone but tomorrow is a new day full of possibilities.

Thanks Spooly, Day 1 begins today I have downloaded blocking software on my laptop and am ready to brush myself down and try again. I got paid today and after paying off my overdraft I have very little money to last the month. I will have even less if I continue to waste money on on-line gaming sites....

So here starts a new chapter (again). I will beat this once and for all!!! I know my triggers are boredom so I will need to keep busy, been for a long walk this morning and I'm at work the next few days so I will keep my mind distracted. The blocks will help with my laptop but there are so many other devices in the house. I WILL remain strong, J x

Hi Jaz. That's the spirit. Let's not even bother to count day 1s. Let's go back to seven days with a relapse so now it's day 8. It's like snakes and ladders. That horrible feeling when you fall down a ladder when you were so close to the prize and you watch everyone else winning the game. We will get there . Sure we may slip on a few snakes but we won't fall down them. That makes me seven months with a two month relapse. Today I'm starting month eight, sounds better doesn't it. So let's support each other by coming on often and leaving messages for each other. I know what you mean about devices, I am thinking of getting rid of my ipad but my husband has just ordered me a new iphone.no we are not rich it's a contract you pay off. Oh I was really feeling happy two months ago but onward and upwards. Great idea keeping busy. Going to start in my kitchen now!!

Hi Jaz, I have just read your recent comments and I too am at my lowest at the moment. We need to hit rock bottom before picking ourselves up. I'll be supporting you where I can. Try and be strong.

Andy