Steady as she goes!

Hiya Weldy

Hope the news on your wee filly is good and she runs well when the time comes.

I really believe theres no reason why you wouldnt be able to go see her race now - you have really come a long way and your whole outlook on gambling seems so different now. Of course Im no expert and although at the start I discouraged you from this, i think now you would be strong enough to enjoy a day at the track and see your horse run and socialise a bit.

You know yourself how you feel about it my friend but I know I intend to take in a few meetings soon just for the love of the sport. We have taken our time and small steps but with our racing connections we knew a time would come where we would need to test ourselves that little bit more.

I have every faith in you.

Eyes X

Hi LE and all,

I have felt a little less calm and slightly more erratic today. I've been working away as normal but with a little less enthusiasm for reasons I cannot get to grips with.

I'm slightly less busy with work, thankfully as things were a bit too busy for a while, and I'm getting through what I have to do, but just don't seem to have that extra skip in my step at the moment.

Have had a couple of urges today, possibly beacuse I had spoken with my trainer about the filly, and actually turned on the tv to watch another of his inmates run at Leicester. Found my sub-conscious was cooking up some kind of plan on me.

Having said all of that, I have not and WILL NOT gamble today, in fact, just being back on my diary already has me feeling better.

The filly is doing ok, and may run in 2 or 3 weeks time, though the ground may determine this. I will then have that hurdle to cross that I have been anticipating. I shall hopefully be back in a more productive frame of mind by then, and I really hope to be able to go without doing any betting.

Back to work for me now, see if I can get a few more things off my list....

Weldy

Please stay strong Weldy, you are doing so well. Buy yourself a star bar to cheer yourself up!

Jas x

Thanks Jas,

I have just spent over 3 hours reading and posting tonight as I was feeling a little sour faced and dishilousioned. It helped.

I'm 36 days since my last bet, which is nothing to feel downbeat about. Do I miss it? Of course I do, but do I miss how it was making me feel? d**n right I don't!!!

I have made progress beyond my expectations because quite frankly, 37 days ago I had no expectations.

And why? Because I was gripped firmly in a life that had no life. Gambling controlled my life almost 100%, because if I wasn't gambling I resented the fact that something else was preventing my gambling.

It was like an "international gamble-thon"!!! Morning Dogs, afternoon UK/irish horses, evening horses/dogs, US horse racing, Australian horse racing and then a few hands of poker to round off the day (Morning by this time!!!) before 3 hours sleep (if possible) and then start over!

Tonight I thank this forum, and those who sail in it! for saving me from all that. It's good to be alive, it's great not to gamble, and...... blimey! I really must go to bed!

Take care. (ODAAT!)

Weldy

Hi Weldy

I've read some of your responses to other people's posts and would like to say what great reading it made. Let's hope none of us return to the madness you describe. ODAAT is the most valuable tool I have come to understand on here. Long may it last.

I post on as many diaries as I can but ultimately it is for me, to keep me sane and sensible. If others don't take on board your views it isn't a problem, as long as you don't gamble.

Take care

Steve E

Hi all,

Off to London for 3 meetings now, then rehearsal so won't be back til after midnight.

Have a good gambling free day all and take care.

Weldy

Weldy sounds like your making great progress and did the write thing by typing away on here when feeling disillusioned. Onwards and upwards and your still gamble free. Enjoy London.. if that is possible 😉 Stay strong don't gamble and keep smiling 🙂

Hi Weldy, glad you overcome your urges and stayed strong. Hope rehersals go well. Still waiting so I can download your music one day!!! Min x

Hi weldy

Youre doing great my friend and it was funny reading your post as you kinda talked yourself back into positivity by the end of it.

Gamble-athon is the right word - I can relate to that and I am so glad it isnt like that now. It was an exhausting way to live.

Hope Londons not too stressful.

Eyes

X

Hi Weldy.

Gamble-athon, too right. Us lot should be in the guiness book of records lol.

You are doing great and I'm sure your diary is helping others as much as it helps me. Thank you.

Jas x

Hi all,

Not too much to report, still going well and I'm on day 39 today.

Fairly calm and relaxed as a result of not gambling, and pretty much caught up with work so either need more work to come in or in a week or so I'll be trying to generate some more or some new work.

I don't often talk about money on my diary, as I have found it rather too depressing and negative. However, I do want to report that after 39 days, things really look a lot more promising than they did before, which is a great relief. Far from being out of the woods yet, but another 39 days and things will be better again.

I used to find any discussion about money could trigger a gambling binge, and I used to find myself talking back out loud to radio and tv ads about investments, mortgages, savings etc. as they used to drive me batty!

Anyway, I am off to visit a site today which is a long drive (270 mile round trip) which will keep me occupied for the day, and my g/f is coming with me as it's on the Kent coast. Fish & chips on the seafront after work before driving back, so that should be good.

Been trying to buy a running machine on e bay but without success, keep getting outbid! Really frustrating as I want to get my fitness campaign under way and wanted to avoid road running as I have one "dodgy" knee that needs building up before I can pound the streets!

Take care all and have a good gamble free day! The weekend will soon be here, and I have a gig Saturday night in Windsor. (can't wait!)

Weldy

Hi Weldy sounds like u r in a good place mentally. Really good to read your positive posting today.

Beautiful day for the trip and weather forecast good for weekend so should be a good gig.

Take care and enjoy yourself. Min x

Hi Weldy,

Enjoy your roadtrip with your gf. The sun with definitely shine for you. Remember your star bars for energy!

Jas x

Thanks for the support and advise. Congrats on your steady recovery. Keep it up. All the best.

C.A

Hi all, Thanks for your messages of support.

I am feeling a little lost today, as I haven't got much to do until the gig this evening.

I don't often have nothing to do, I keep myself really busy, so it's a bit strange.

Having said that, I'm still feeling calm and in control, and enjoying the peace and tranquility that not gambling has brought me.

I will have to learn to relax more and enjoy the quiet time, it can't always be mad busy!

Got two new songs in the set tonight (Love Shack-B52's & Addicted to Love-Robert Palmer) so been learning the lyrics for those.

Enjoy a quiet gamble free day.

Weldy