I no longer have the support of my ex fiancé as she says her head can’t take it no more so the people I can talk to has now got shorter.
feels like the more I try to talk about everything people don’t want to listen or hear what I have to say no more.
i did a brave thing  thing today and decided it was time that I told as many people as I could about my gambling problem I don’t care how people see me it’s what I needed to do for myself.Â
im starting to slowly forgive myself for what I have doneÂ
Hello billy
Thank you for sharing this.
I see from your previous post that your break up with your fiancé was very recent – this sounds so painful and upsetting.
I can hear how much courage it took to tell people about your gambling – especially as you were feeling so unheard. You’re right – it is really important to concentrate on your recovery and what you need at the moment.
It's good to hear you're starting to forgive yourself. Being able to find some self-compassion is going to help with your recovery. This might seem difficult at the moment but it can eventually create a sense of taking control back.
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Wishing you well and hope to hear more updates from you on here as your journey progresses.
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It is and it’s very hard I’m currently looking olfor a new place to live which I completely understand on her behalf. im still really hurting from the break-up but im repairing slowly each day gets easier and we slowly starting to become good friends again which is what we both need.Â
since i released this in myself im starting to feel good because im not hiding it from people and more people have come too help me more than push me away so that has really surprised me and it makes me feel good know I have more helpnthan I thought.Â
im still having moments where I think to myself you don’t deserve the compassion yet but then im reminded that everyone deserves to love themselves.Â
I have my 1:1 support person ringing me at 1 today so im looking forward to that and then after that I have my money advice on the 15 can’t wait for that either.Â
indont know where i would be if I didn’t have the opportunity to talk on here as this has helped me gamban has been my biggest saver so far and my journey is only just beginningÂ
I am going to succeed and beat this as my moto says to dare is to doÂ
Hello Billy
The recovery room helps you open up more, reduce your fears increse your trust issues and increase emotional intimacy.
It was a very lonely life being an addict.
I was not bad stupid dumb or evil.
I was just emotionally vulnerable.
In time I would understand and learn how to heal my pains.
In time I would understand and learn how to reduce my fears.
In time I would understand and learn how to reduce my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.
As I got more patient and tolerant with my self I could get more patient and tolerant with others.
It is very unhealthy being anaddict.
Love peace and healing to every one.
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
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