The bear new chapter

Thank you Suzanne I feel horrible gambling I have to keep trying day 1 tomorrow for my little boy he dont deserve this anyone thinking of betting please don't it sucks the life out of you whether you win or not....

The bear x

Hey Bear

Just curious to know how you are still gambling if you have handed over all finances to your partner? Are you being honest with her and others?

Hope you find the strength to distance yourself from the thing that is causing you so much pain.

Take care.

Feb.

Hi Bear,

I have watched your progression this year and felt sick. You can see plainly you do not want to gamble but when it gets its hooks into you. It's nearly impossible to get free. You really have to hand over everything no options small get outs and pray this is your time. I was where you are a year ago life is not perfect but reading your diaries make me realise how lucky I am today.

Michael

Thank you feb and Michael I feel sick as well it's horrible my head doesn't sit still 🙁 and feb when does a gambler and honesty go together I just know I have a problem and its wrong its down to me but I will conquer this thanks again for your posts.

Te bear x

Bear, I suppose it's only when the gambler decides to quit for good.

Feb.

Day 1 first test dealt with last night it's not about the money anymore just sanity and my family no false high required just want life's treasures have good day everyone.

The bear x

Good morning bear,

Stick to this recovery road and reap the benefits of it. Money and greed of it only bring war to the world. You deserve peace instead - look around you, can you see you already got it there? Take it my friend and hold it tight to your heart.

Stick to your diary, keep posting and venting out. You are not alone

Sandra x

Thank you Sandra tough week ahead but your post and others on my diary help massively thank you x

The bear x

The Bear

my dear friend if I could take away the pain I would,if I could wave a wand and you would no longer be caught up in the self made whirlwind of the sh##itty destruction that is the compulsion to gamble I would fella.

Truth is I can't,the only person who has the power to end the mindfook is you my friend.

The thing that has always struck me in the time that we have shared this journey is your honesty,it shines through the sh##it you self create and I believe is what your recovery can be built upon.

Truth is Bear most folk in your shoes would have disappeared from the forum long ago,but testament to you my friend you are still here,still fighting to make a prolonged choice that will see the end of your own destructive gambling.

For me you need to take the help on offer,don't be too proud to take it fella,f**k I wore your shoes for twenty years,I refused to listen,to take the great advice on offer,to admit that gambling had me licked.

What did I get for my commitment

Near financial ruin,very near loss of my family and most importantly loss of my mind,I stopped functioning as a human,I turned into a desperate,disillusioned empty shell who with honesty put the punt before everything else in my life.

When I came here bear I was a broken man,I would have done anything to fix the damage I let addiction bring to my life.

Recovery does gift exactly that fella

I simply hope you find it too.

It is there you just have to want it,my hope is you don't wage what I did before you find it.

One day at a time

Duncs stepping forward never back

Thanks for your post duncs you have done amazing and thank you for sticking with me I come back as I hate it it takes everything away from my life my love for my girlfriend my love for my son my life disappears down a pit of time consuming destruction I am currently a shell of the man I was when I stopped for 100 days but have a strong feeling this time that I can restore my life thanks again.

The bear

Hi Bear

Day 1 is good because you are trying again

There is a saying if at first you don't succeed try and try again

Corny I know but it such a positive and hopeful saying

The choice is yours to make

I wish you the very best in making the right choice

Suzanne x

Just take it one day at a time. When I was in rehab they asked me to write a life story. Basically my life as it is affected by gambling. It did help to rehash all the events in my life gambling had tainted. It took a week but basically got you over a few humps. Welcome back and hopefully this is your time.

The bear,

It is never too late to restore your life. Never give up giving up. Just stay close by, even at the start....trust me, it is so much easier to get out of the grip of this nasty disease knowing you are not on your own and have where to turn each time nasty thought crosses your mind. You can do it, keep believeing....anything is possible 🙂

Staybsafe

Day at a time

S x

Thanks everyone for your posts I really appreciate it not gambling today have afternoon with my boy on living room floor with toys yes the thoughts are in my mind but will get easier things are raw at the moment but as we all know will get easier x

Thanks again to you lovely people x

The bear

Day 2 mental well being not good after last phase of gambling will take little while to work through but need to get myself to calmer place have good day everyone...

The bear x