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I had a bad day today. I dont know whats going on with me. My mood has dipped very low. Im overall having a really bad day. I guess they make me appreciate the good ones right? Im not gambling. I know that my days were always bad when i was gambling when i walked out the door left with nothing but an empty bank account and regret.

It's tough TW when after 3 months things are still not ideal I'm the same but I know if been in far worse place if I was still gambling

Good times will come back as we say it's just ODAAT

KTF

Hi TW,

You are entitled to have a bad day; that comes with being human - not being a gambler. I can guarantee it would be 100 times worse if you were bang at it.

Congrats on reaching 90 days - a great achievement.

Hi T , Don't worry buddy your mood will soon lift , we all get those days I'm about 125 days clean and even last week I was up and down like a yoyo !.

I think some days were full of joy and happiness because weve come so far in a few months and other days just seem to look back and reflect on what weve done ?.

Stay positive and your mood will lift , as you said , how would you be feeling right now had you continued along the same path ?

Count your blessings mate !

Take care and well done on those 90 days of winning !

Hi hope your having a better day today. We all have up and down days it's how you deal with the down days that is important. You are doing really great you should be very pleased with yourself. Wcid x

Thank you so much everyone. Today i woke to a better day, it went better than the last few days. I just kept perservering thinking this will not stay like this forever it is temporary. I still have the gambling monster knocking on my door. I am ignoring it and going on with life. I dont know i will ever be free from it. I just have to co exist with it

Glad your feeling a bit perkier today T , knock those negative feelings into touch and focus on the positive's and it will soon become the norm , like you say , you will learn to live with it and I think it will always be part of us but eventually you wont place the importance on it that it has now , given time it will just sit tucked away on the back burner , just as all things that have passed it will be a distant memory of something we used to do .

And those monsters are nothing mate , if your triangles broken and all doors firmly shut , they wont bother you for long because they won't get in !.

Stay strong fella !

Hi TW,

Been following this thread and great to hear about your successful progress! You're seriously doing an amazing job 🙂

It's really inspiring to hear the motivational words and stories of those in this forum. Even 9 months into my own recovery, it still helps ever so much.

As many other members will echo, bad days do happen. The feeling of no immediate fix did get me down a few times during the early stages of my recovery. It's important to understand GA and the whole community are here for you to pick you up and offer support when you need it. We are all in this together and that's something this horrible monster will not take away!

Keep going! It's important you take this one day at a time or one hour at a time if that helps. If you can get to your pillow at night without a bet, then it's one day further away from your demons.

Look forward to hopefully speaking to you soon. Stay strong soldier.

Andy

Hello, i have not been here in a while. I went into a recluse mode and then crawled out again the other side. Im amazed to say i have not gambled! It is pretty amazing to me. I have had a lot of relapses before. I have tried a lot before but this time i feel like something is sticking. Ive had a few close calls but i have tried to delay between the thought to gamble and the action to go. I keep waiting it out, saying i iwll go in half an hour, or i will go after lunch and as i keep waiting it out, longer and longer the urges fade.

Tangled 🙂

Well done Tangled

It's almost a constant battle but it sounds like you have it cracked. It should be a no brainer to stop but I guess some of us are just made up differnetly. The main thing to remember is how many negatives there are to gambling (there are no positives). Even winning is a negative to a compulsive gambler as we just try to win more which ultimately leads to larger losses.

So keep going and enjoy the less complex things in life like good deeds, conversation and completely different interests!

All the best, Gyp

Hi thanks Gyp for your reply to me. I have had a few struggles lately, a few times i have almost gambled. It was too close. It really scared me, the fear i have now of going back i have never had before. I think its because of how bad it got and how hard it was to get up this time from that last relapse. It was an awfullly dark place i landed. I could see no light or hope. Today i am gamble free thank god.. one day at a time.

Great to see your still Ticking over TW. Over 6 months now. I to still get them urges not often but I brush them off. Often I go back and read my diary on the 23rd Oct you wrote "Gambling has become serious for me. Its not a bit of fun, its not ever going to be small if i start. It never is and it never has been. If i start gambling again, i have to be prepared that the outcome will be not the same, but worse, it always is."

Hi, i hadnt been posting here regularly. I am a mess. i relapsed and i relapsed hard. I spent more this time in a week than i did in months previously. what i have done has ruined me. I now will pay off one weeks gambling for years. I feel sickened. i dont know how to cope with this. I am completly messed up

Hi Tangled

Sorry you went back gambling. Don't beat your self up too badly. There are others that will do that enough for you.

So what now? My sponsor in GA told me its not that i've got knocked off the horse, its what i do when i get back on. What are you going to do differently this time? More than anything I just wanted to put a big arm accross your shoulders on tell you your not alone. Seriously never think that. Keep posting and don't leave us again 🙂

Tri xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (((((tangled web))))))

Thanks triangle

Unfortunately i relapsed big time.. it was nothing small, it was evrything i had i now see no point to the recoveyr i had,.. i will be paying for years for a small time gambling im sick

Tangled