The last attempt

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Hello, destiny brothers. This is my last attempt to stop betting. About me (sorry for poor english and thoughts jump, as my feelings are not adequate at the moment)

I am completelly addicted to betting . I played for 14 years. Usually betting. Many years ago I had small plus, but now I have lost a flat, this is sum of money that is equal to 170 monthly earnings in my country. During January I have lost the last 20 monthly wages (most of it during one night). And I feel broken at all.

Yes, I use alcohol, but actually I am not addicted to it and it doesn`t connect with betting at all. I am almost 40, and I have nothing apart debts, mortgage for the house.

I saw your website few days ago, it was useful to read few stories. Sharing ideas, in order to avoid betting, could help. But actually gamblers are very smart people and they always find the way out – the way to get money for playing.

I suppose when we support each other maybe many of us will manage to come up with this f...g matter. I tried to go to anonymous gamblers. I didn`t like it – they talk about Jesus too much. I have made many things in order to avoid temptation to play – nothing helps. Now I try your website.

This is my day No 7 without betting, without playing. Every day , every minute was unbelievable difficult, I am still very very angry on everyone, I still think about bets, although I try not to watch sport events. It is really difficult. Nothing helps at all. Intensive work (actually I can not work – not in the mood), busyness, sports, trainings, playing with children, nothing helps at all.

I would like to get big amount of money and place a huge bet. But no, I will try to do my best – to stop. The first target – 21 day. People arround me say that 21 day should help to get habit , should be easier then.

I wish patience for everyone!

 
Posted : 17th February 2015 10:19 am
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Good luck mate. Best thing I have found is keep Busy. I've being doing diy and got the car hoover and cleaned. The garden cleaned up. Looking to book a holiday now.

 
Posted : 17th February 2015 10:43 am
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Hello to day 8. Yesterday was difficult. 3 bottles of beer helped to overcome the evening.

 
Posted : 18th February 2015 7:44 am
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Damm, sitting at work, can not concentrate at all. Just looking all your posts all the day and thinking and feeling badly. Still day 8.

 
Posted : 18th February 2015 3:12 pm
Lost my life
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Hi Dovydas, I echo your thoughts, just looking at this forum, can't work at all, thinking what if.................., I have actually completely ruined a perfect financial position for later in life. Just been to see my councellor - 14 session's down and I have only just come to the end of my gambling life. Life was never meant to be easy ............................. Good luck, stick at abstaining, its really tough.

 
Posted : 18th February 2015 3:50 pm
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at last day 9. Angry over all. When will this pain end?

 
Posted : 19th February 2015 7:33 am
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Hey Dovydai,

Keep fighting, it will get easier. Early days are the toughest ones to get over with. Very raw feeling, but these will pass...take it day at a time, let the fog lift and start finding your old self again.

Tu ir tavo seima yra svarbiausi sioj kelionej.

take care and stay safe

 
Posted : 19th February 2015 1:29 pm
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Thank you Sandra12 for nice words. Still 19 minutes left till day 10. How is it difficult...

 
Posted : 19th February 2015 10:41 pm
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14 minutes left. the5th bottle of beer helps me a lot to wait.

 
Posted : 19th February 2015 10:46 pm
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Ok. Day 10!!!

 
Posted : 20th February 2015 11:11 am
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No words...

On day 11 was sitting for 2 hours thinking bet or not to bet. Managed to resiste to the temptation. But the day 12 was urge. Received a wage, gave few debts (as received warning about electrical disconnection) and lost and lost...

Very strange mysticism. I won only 3 bets from 21 (coefficients 1.8-2.0) on football, basketball, tennis. Since New Year I hit only 10-20 percent. Abssolutely incredible storries/things occurs.

Since yesterday made few steps: self excluded from websites that I used; Installed K9 in home computers (password is known only for my wife), wrote request – blocked possibility to receive fast credits from credit institutions. It should work as if I would like to receive new credit now I have to wait for 90 days.

172 monthly earnings is gone. I was so selfish, broke all dreams of my family. Enough.

February 24, 2015 – DAY 1.

 
Posted : 24th February 2015 8:19 am
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I am with you man. I just started the self exclusion and k9 as well. I am at that point that if I dont stop I will destroy my life. Your not alone.

 
Posted : 24th February 2015 9:06 am
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Day 2. No money, no thinking about betting. Even do not know CL results. I don`t care about them. Mostly everything seems safe. Blocked sites, self exluded.

 
Posted : 25th February 2015 8:01 am
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Stay strict with yourself and really focus. Have you convinced yourself that you never want to bet again? It yes then that is excellent news. If no and you're thinking that in a few months you can go back to placing a small bet and it won't matter then stop and have another think about all the people on here we have done that and told their tales... it's not worth it. Commit to never gambling again and have that set strongly in your mind. You can do this.

 
Posted : 25th February 2015 8:18 am
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Thanks for your message Change! Thanks a lot! Very good question about convincing myself. Difficult to answer. At the moment when I think about any bet I want to puke.

Further more I have no idea why should I risk 500, 2000 or 10 000. This amount of money will not change my life to better side, as losses are much much higher. But it actually can destroy me at all if I lose.

I read this website, find very right thoughts. There is no value coefficients to risk money. It is so difficult to earn money! Actually I try to forget the past, to live if there was no betting in my life, no betting in the world. I don`t no that such activity exists in the world.

Hope I will always think so. Good luck to all of us!

 
Posted : 25th February 2015 8:59 am
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