Ok, you are right. Lets close this discussion.
Day 60. Looking for JOB - Just Over Broke.
Dear Dovydas,
I am one of those people that do say sorry about your slip, (because I am genuinely sorry and I feel the pain of everyone's slip)
I am also one of those people that says well done, etc, because I do believe every day we abstain deserves a big well done, and I genuinely mean that too,
I care and I do sincerely wish everyone single person on here, a good strong recovery journey, it's not an easy journey but it can be done and it's good to share and support .
Suzanne xx
Day 70. Debts, debts, debts. It is very difficult to climb when I am so low.
Day 78. Tired of being poor. Spend much time with my kids instead of betting. Try to find cheap activities like hiking, painting on trees in the forest, cycling...Nevertheless managed to make 2 budget trips: one to Frankfurt, another one to Milan.
Today is day 100. A little bit easier, although thoughts about bets, odds, gambling, finding more money are with me every day. d**n it.
How did I live these days? – budget live. Drank a lot cheap beer, ate less in order to spend less. Drop off the empty bottles (deposits for bottles) receive some money and bought some bread for lunch. What a contrast to previous live!
Already have 1000 (but I do not dispose it) secret savings for the very black day or very angry bills. The ONLY thing that works – absence of money. And yes you need to plan, to plan all expenses, and strictly keep this plan. It is not difficult to plan when you have only 10,20 or 100 in your disposition.
Please, don`t congratulate. Still too early.
Netherless dovydas 100 days of abstaining is a great milestone and a great achievement.
Well done you.
Suzanne xxx
Day 127. Still miss those days of betting. Fighting with thoughts almost every day. Saving on everything I can. Having almost no money in the pocket. Huge mass in my head. Want to emigrate, but cannot leave my kids.
Decided not to drink for a while! Day 30 alcohol free (unbelievable record). Reason – have no money for beer.
Wish you strength in your own ways!
Well done on 127 days and the no alcohol bit, 3 days is my limit with that lol,
Suzanne xxx
Well done! 127. Let that then into 150! 200!
Keep strong. Think of those children. What would they feel if you lapsed? Keep going. Very inspired.
How I live now? I do not eat for 36-38 hours. Saving. (supposed Fast); Ussually my lunch is couple of bananas. I have lost 17percent of my weight. Feel depressed, badly. I take many pears from village, so now I eat 20-25 pears per day! in order not to waste money on food.
Have huge mortgage, debts. Electricity was turned off for a while because of debt. Remember my past when my single bet on BJ was monthly wage! Every minute you win or lose monthly wage. Remember when 2 years income went out in 20 minutes...
Although it is Day 199 I still think about betting frequentlly. But I have no money. Sometimes I walk to work 6km in order to save money. At work I do nothing, I pretend working, thanks God my director is my friend. But it is matter of time when I will be in a street. The best thing I still have my wife and 2 kids. But they live harder lives because of my stupidity.
Still do not drink. Day 102 alcohol free – absolutely incredible.
No need for congratulation. I still feel temptation.
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