Bop5 your journey is so inspiring! Keep inspiring us addicts because you're definitely helping my recovery too 🙂 . I'm aiming for that one month mark but one day at a time . 12 days GF here . Keep us updated 🙂
Thanks for the motivation sars27. We will beat this addiction, We cant win, because we cant stop.
Just for one day
56 days (8weeks) gamble free
Keeps on popping into my mind every now and then, i dont have the urge to act on it though as i know it will ruin me. Im not willing to go back to day 1 gamble free. Worked hard to get here.
Day 61 gamble free.
Feeling strange really. Ive been constantly thinking about bets this week (with no actual intent to act up on this urge). Its like there is a devil and angel on either shoulder, thankfully the angel/common sense/will power is far far outweighing the devil.
Got my sights set on 100 days gamble free, and with my new found will power and the blocks i have in place, I WILL GET THERE!
Day 65 gamble free
Before the weekend i was really struggling getting the thought of gambling out of my mind. I didnt want to gamble (and i didn't). Luckily i have had a busy weekend and my mind is once again focused.
I asked the mrs to book a holiday, so that i had something to focus my mind on.
Thanks to the person who posted on another persons forum, its made me think why i wanted to stop in the first place. We are all here to help eachother, and he certainly did.
On to 100 days gamble free!!!
Dear Bop,
I just wanted to congratulate you on your continuing success, you are an inspiration, thank you for sharing! Keep it up!
70 DAYS (10 WEEKS) gamble free.
In a great place at the minute. Ive still got a long long way to go.
I still have all the blocks i had from day 1 in place. I feel like i could be trusted with more than £10/£20 but i dont want that temptation. My partner still has my cards which I'm having less of a problem than i thought i would at the beginning.
Got my eyes set on the 30th july which WILL be 100 days gamble free.
Dont look for happiness in the same place you lost it!
Day 75
So im 3/4 of a way to my first milestone of 100 days. Im going to smash through that and continue my recovery. I dont know why i didnt do it sooner
Day 86 (12 weeks 2 days) since my last best.
Feel like this is a battle at the minute. I thought that once i got around 3months that my brain wouldnt crave that bet. The longer im going gamble free, the more i am thinking about gambling. Its not in a sense that i feel i need to bet, but just the thought of one when the season starts thats playing on my mind.
I am trying to keep in my head what gambling has done to me, and why i needed to stop in the first place. I know how disappointed in myself i would be if i placed any kind of bet. Edging closer to 100 days gamble free which is my first target!
feel free to give me any advice!
Day 86 (12 weeks 2 days) since my last bet.
Feel like this is a battle at the minute. I thought that once i got around 3months that my brain wouldnt crave that bet. The longer im going gamble free, the more i am thinking about gambling. Its not in a sense that i feel i need to bet, but just the thought of one when the season starts thats playing on my mind.
I am trying to keep in my head what gambling has done to me, and why i needed to stop in the first place. I know how disappointed in myself i would be if i placed any kind of bet. Edging closer to 100 days gamble free which is my first target!
feel free to give me any advice!
2 more weeks for that first target, great stuff so far - i've just ticked over the 100 day mark myself, i will admit to a slghtly satisfied smirk to myself when I twigged this morning
Biggest thing I can say at present is that I am more 'at peace' with myself than ever before as I think I have finally let go of 'the money'
some very blunt and direct words from my sister in my first few days post confession have really stuck with me
I was desperate to tell a story of winning some money and how I had lost it and how it was that fuel that kept me gambling
her response - 'I don't care. I'm not interested in your stories - it's all just part of your manipulation'..... 'I will not let you manipulate me' essentially she was making a very valid point, the money, the values are all just relative, the sums will vary from person to person, from story to story and they really are immaterial, it is the behaviour that we should focus on
not sure how much sense this makes but for me it has been quite profound, I hope it has also tied in with a genuine, real desire to quit. I'm done with it, I have not enjoyed gambling for years and years, I have just gone back time and time again as I wanted a quick win, i wanted a life that gambling promised me, only it didn't. If I hadn't gambled I would have long ago had the life I was dreaming of. Instead, I have something very different, I have to find the value in that and I have to focus on what I have and take each day at a time.
Same here i am a lot more calm in myself. I also understand what your sister was getting at. We are master manipulators. Well not no more.
The quote that got to me was "stop looking for happiness in the same place you lost it". I was happy before i gambled, had a big win then spiralled out of control. I have realised that keeping my wages to myself is far more money than i ever win, because we never really win.
Day 90
10 days till i hit 100, and gambling is playing in my head so much. I havent really struggled getting here to be honest but the fact of going the rest of my life seems an illusion. I actually enjoy doing a football bet, but i know I can't control myself if i win.
Low in morale at the min.
100 days (1st target complete)
Had a read through your dairy. Well done on sticking to it for 100 days. Hopefully many more days, weeks & years to come!
Im on day 1 (yet another day 1).. Hopefully I can keep it up just like you!
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