Here I was a year ago thinking Id finished with gambling. Looks like I was wrong. It hadnt finished with me..... So back again, back to the feelings of self loathing. This time, day one will turn into years of abstinence. Financially Im ok but its the time I lose to this stupid obsession . Fed up of feeling guilty about the money I have lost, wasted etc. Fed of of hiding away. So now today no more. Going to go back to reading the diaries here, trying to make this my escapism from gambling and living with Cancer. Day one again.....
Day 2. Feeling good , abstaining and feeling good. This time its for real......
Day 4 determined to beat this and abstain. I can do this......
Day 6 abstaining. I can do this.....
Help! another 250 today! this time Ive self excluded . I have to stop for my sanity and to stop this feeling of shame and despair. No more! i have too much time on my hands but I need to turn from this path of self destruction. Im now going to take an hour at a time. everytime I feel like gambling Im going to go do something else. Day 1 starts today at 12.36. the new me , god I hope I have the strength!
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
