Morning cuddles? 😉 is that what they call it lol I'm enjoying the positivity keep it up,this is the start of a new improved life! Hope you get to counselling soon as it's good to unburden yourself. Best wishes
Hahaha now that's just you're dirty mind!!!! But yes hopefully contact is made soon or I shall be on their case! Positive mood, positive mind, positive acts!
Keep going- it will get easier I hope when you go back to work as you will have less time to even think about it! hopefully you continue to stay strong and I'm glad your boyfriend is back on the scene!
Thankyou Adam! How's things going for you at the moment?
So the day is over, in knackered and ready for bed! Today I spent time with my mum sorting out finances and talking about my direct debits ect, knowing how much I'll have each month and I could save a lot! I opened a savings account today aswell, I'm feeling a little sorry for myself after having my little surgery today as in abit of pain but I'm all well and good! Smiling and feeling great. My mum keeps hugging me and telling me how much she loves me, normally this would annoy me every ten minutes but I'm letter her get on with it, if it's her way of coping who cares :)! Now time to watch an episode of stranger things with the boyf and get ready for an early 6am start! Here's to tomorrow being as good as today!
Wow - now that sounds a busy and fulfilling day. Here's to tomorrow.
Best wishes
Today I woke up and felt good, off to work feeling motivated! On my first break at work at the moment - I used to go to the smoking area and find a secluded bench and gamble away my hours lunch, but not today! I'm sat on a lovely bit of grass, with a book and my lunch, gunna enjoy my hours rest before heading back to the busy ward! No urges what so ever, I'm enjoying the feeling of having my money and saying yes when people are inviting me out, instead of making up some excuse or reason why I can't. Here's to another day gamble free, and I'm feeling amazing!
Hey free
Just caught up with your diary. ..
Like you slots was my downfall....
So glad you've got the support of a loving family....youre doing great...take little steps love..life will fall back into shape if you work hard on your recovery....take a peep at my diary. ..although I'm old enough to be your mum....it may help a bit...it may not....but either way hun. ...it will keep you occupied ....stay safe...stay here.. x
Nice to hear the positivity continues! I'm a very outgoing person and like to be the centre of attention at times but I lost count of the amount of nights out,parties trips away etc that I turned down over the years having to invent some far fetched story like my pet unicorn needs new shoes so I can't afford it! I think the fact that I still managed to do loads of things meant that I wasn't quite there yet in terms of quitting but hey a mountain of plastic a couple of loans and an overdraft will soon change anyone's thinking lol keep up the good work 🙂
Hiya loxxie, Thankyou for reading I shall defiantly have a read through yours! No matter how old you are everybody has their own story! Thankyou for the love and support hunny xoxo. And New, you did make me laugh! But it's so true! Thinking of what to tell people next was always a difficult one! Some of the things I said I bet people knew I was having them on! But yes I continue to keep this positive, and hopefully spread these positive vibes onto others, I lost myself for a while but I'm finally getting myself back, and it's amazing what you find out about yourself after going through such an emotional and painfull time! Your support is highly appreciated here :)!x
Wow free soul you're doing amazingly. well done xxxx
Thankyou Thankyou!
So it's my bedtime now, 1 week gamble free, I've suprised myself! I use to never miss a day, but now I spend all day not missing it! I've had a busy day at work and feeling abit deflated, the last thing I wanna do is give my hard earned money to a dodgy online casino! Now, I'm gunna get a good sleep back up again at 6am and could do with the rest, me and my boyfriend have been planning activities we can do together; as my gambling made me so anti-social even towards him, we used to sit in silence for hours... But now we've made plans! Ones that cost money that I'm not afraid of spending!!!! Night night all, keep smiling and keep those heads up, tomorrow is a brighter day :)xo
Didn't post yesterday as was so busy with work, and then as soon as I got home I just collapsed into bed! Who knew looking after 13 dementia patients could be so difficult!! Today I've woken up feeling like me, no cloud hanging over my head, I'm happy :)! Today nobody's in the house and I'm off, so I would of normally spent this day binge watching tv shows and gambling away on my phone, but nope! I'm heading out for lunch with a friend and a little mooch around the shops! My healthy living has been really good this week and I've lost -3lbs!!! I'm in a great frame of mind, still no contact from the people about my counseling, I've rang them and they keep saying they will get back to me because busy ect, so the wait continues! Atleast if I need somebody to talk to I have my mum and wonderful boyfriend :)! Onwards and upwards! Now time to get ready and enjoy my gamble free day!
There's no set rules about how often or little you have to post as its your diary,that being said it's nice when you do as the positivity can spread. I think the main things I get from your diary is how far you've came in a short space of time. From the desperation and worry at the start to the positivity and energy you now have,but I guess the other thing I pick up on is that you realise that there's still work to be done. This is a horrible addiction and is always lurking around in the shadows waiting on that moment when we feel low or the initial euphoria about quitting dies down and is replaced by boring normality. Things are looking up for you it was just a blip on life's long road. Well done on losing 3lbs that's the kind of lbs I guess a lot of us gamblers would be happy to lose lol enjoy your weekend and keep on moving forward 🙂
Looking after 13 dementia patients is extremely difficult. Nothing surprising about that. Enjoy your day off and stay safe.
CW
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