Time to stop for good.

Hi dj

Well done on 5 days keep going forwards one day at a time

Stay strong and positive

Best wishes

Suzanne x

Dj

Fella a very interesting question you posed.

For me I learned the hard way,28 months into recovery and I got very complacent,as did those around me,I think the general consensis was that I was cured

The result, three hours of madness,bank account hammered,all because I walked into the bookies with a twenty pound note to try and fix a very temporary financial shortage.

It was like the 28 months meant nothing,the brain switched back into addiction mode in the blink of an eye,back and forth to the bank until no more funds available.

The mantra the same

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP.

win or lose the outcome for me when gambling is always the same

the chase,the raised stakes the relentless pursuit of what??

to be honest I never once had an out game,a win that would satisfy my greed,lust to relentlessly punt on.

For me total abstinence is the only way for me.

For you it may be different,only you will be able to answer the question honestly.

today I am heading towards a years complete abstinence again,this time I know it's true value.

Each day I will do what it takes to add to the tally.

Abstain and maintain

Recovery is bespoke,I respect that,do what works for you.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Just wanted to say thanks DJ for your input on my diary

Good luck to you, I keep saying it but this place has been a huge factor in me managing to stay focused this week

I also feel like you do, I can't walk into a bookies and do a fiver bet on football or such like, I have realised I just can't stop which also means I just can't win...ever

That fiver turns into LOSING hundreds, it's no fun at all

Good luck to You DJ , let me know how you go?

Cheers Scott, will do.

Day 7, no urges to gamble at all. I feel like I've realised that there are no benefits to come from it. Long may this continue.

Looking good Dj, Well done, keep up the good work, together we can beat this x

Day Nine, All fine...:)

Day 12. Still havnt gambled.

My biggest test do far will be tomorrow. Going to my mates flat to watch the football all day. Need to be strong as we all normally place a few bets throughout the day. A lot of beer will be drunk too.

Will be tough but I'm going to stay strong. Wish me luck.

Sounds like your doing well Dj.

Hope you got through yesterday and continue the successes today mate

Mba

Thanks Mba,

I did get through it but it was very tough. Alcohol has been my weakness in the past but not this time. In reflection in very happy that I've proven to myself I don't need to bet to enjoy myself.

Day 15 🙂

Feel like today could be a make or break for me. I woke up and started looking at football odds for the champions league tonight. Haven't bet yet but huge urges so came on here. Ive even noted down that bet I want to make.

Firstly thanks for posting on my diary DJ, hope you manage to curb that urge you have for tonights games mate, you know deep down that it will just start a bit of a cycle of thinking you can control it when we all know we cant?

Not that I can give advice but if I felt like that, and I did for last 2 weekends, I would post on here and take the help and support so many offer

Good luck to you

Really appreciated the message Scott. I came on this website and re-read my opening post in this diary and then read your message and they completely killed my urges. This site is turning out to be the best tool I could ask for to get over my problem.

Day 18 now. Still thinking about the debt im in and it does make my sad but I do feel like im on the right track.

Hope you all are too.

Dj

Glad you got through this far DJ, hope your ok mate?

Well i failed.... stopped checking this site and had a few bets on the football. Lost and starting chasing and chasing... Long story short down another 3k. (The drunken night in the casino did not help)... Feel stupid and sick but determined to stop for good. The debt is getting unmanagable so i just have to stop..

Short term goal is to not gamlbe till the new year. Easy right?..

You're like me mate. You failed but you're back.
I failed and im back and this timee im going to succeed.
You can too mate.
Let's beat this together.

Mba