Time to take control

31 days is fantastic, like a 'sword' don't give up those days you have worked hard for to pointless, fixed, evil slots. You deserve so much better.

Wilsy

Thanks wilsy!

I'm staying strong!

This morning I thought. 31 days. That's really good. Think of all the money you would have spent......

So reward yourself.

Have a cheeky spin.

Remember that time you won Г—Г—Г—Г—Г—Г— .

Then I thought yeah I do and I GAMBLED THE WHOLE LOT WITHIN 10 MINUTES. And spent twice that trying to win it back!

So today I win.

Today I win more than just money by not gambling. A clear head and a slight anxiety reduction!

we win everyday we don't gamble mate, I checked my bank account after 22 days gamble free and all there are, is transactions for food and petrol, amazing what we can live off, I've been skint since the 1st of November and even though I have had to borrow £25 a week, I have made this money stretch 7days a week. It will get easier all the time we decide to refrain from gambling.

Wilsy

Seeing no gambling site transactions on my statements is such a good feeling. When I want to gamble I just think about the transactions at my lowest point. Literally turns my stomach at how stupid I have been. Day 31 nearly over. Can't wait to make it 32! Well done in your 22 days!

Searched for a site this morning, sat looking at my favourite games. How sad?! Looking at them thinking why am I so addicted to these? .... just one last play. No one would know. It's as if I'm not bothered about the money I just want the thrill. Obviously why iv been throwing money away as if I can afford it. I resisted. I came straight out. I don't need that in my life. Just keep thinking of the shame I'd feel if I even bet "one last pound".

I obviously do not have the right blocks in place, I self excluded but not from all sites.. no 1 thing on my list of to do's

It doesn't leave you, but you have to know how to control it, and when it's there, it does not want you to work it out, the "Just a £10, what harm will that do" is one of his most famous lines. Streamers or playing in Demo is just the Gambling mind at his kiosk giving you free samples waiting for you to buy into the trap. Like you say once your trapped in the web you really dont care about the money, but thats at the time or in the zone, when the jouney ends then it hits home.

Well done on walking away love. .
You know it will only take..take..take...
And we're all to good for a relationship with such a selfish ..greedy...manipulative. ..piece of electronic equipment we once thought of as a friend !
No friend sucks you in...chews you up...and spits you out on the scrap heap without a 2nd thought...
Get those blocks up higher if need be....your days are adding up love...and you're doing great..xx

Come on, BW, lets walk briskly away from these sites together. No actually, lets run because there really is a devil behind us.

I found myself searching for an old favourite game earlier this week when the bad part of my mind started trying to tempt me. Really not a good thing to be doing. Looking at games, playing demos etc all takes us far too near to the fire and puts us just 2 or 3 clicks away from doing something really stupid that we will regret and feel sick about the next morning.

32 days GF for you, keep it up.

Muststop123

Your so right! Thankyou so much! I am not giving in. I'm stronger than this.

Loxxie - what a great description!

Muststop - I am running faster than ever!

33 days. Iv passed the 48 hours of struggling with the urges. But it's over now and I'm so glad I didn't give in as I'd be writing how sick I feel, anxious and depressed I am.

Iv been thinking about gambling addictions and how we feel such shame, embarrassment and guilt when gambling is publicly advertised everywhere yet we all gamble with such secrecy. And how so many people get so addicted and how many lives this destroys. Gamblers and non-gamblers. It's truelly soul destroying.

Go back 2 years I'd have said there is no way I would become a gambling addict. I would never waste that much money on a virtual game. Crazy.

Day 34.

Keeping myself busy and occupied with other things. Didn't install any blocks. As my phone is a work phone and worried it may mess up my phone. Any other alternatives. I have android does anyone use a block and have had no problems?

I really don't want to gamble again and after looking at a site the other day I'm not sure I trust myself 100 percent even though I do not want to gamble.

Hi BW

Didn't want to reply earlier as was experiencing a little trouble with my blocker.

As you know, I have installed GamBan but two days ago a key (protection sign in notification board) has dissapeared. I of course tried to access sites and yes...i was able to! Since then I emailed them with asking about it and in two days and 8 emails later I was sent another password to install.
The issue for my android was - update. It updated my phone and for some reason took protection off.

However staff at GamBan were as helpful as ever and today I could kiss them all lol..

I feel so much better again. It's just those nagging thoughts I didn't know I will have after what I went thorough over the last 3 weeks!

So yeah..GamBan...£10 for a year licence...only little key visible on the device and you still can use your browsers for internet...i would recommend it!

Peace of mind..phew...what a relief for sure!

Hope you're having a calm and peaceful Sunday ☺

Speak in chat some time this week.

S&B xx

Ahh SJ that's great thankyou so much!

So I should do my update first then as I keep getting a notification for that but haven't done it yet!.

Iv had a very calm gamble free Sunday so atleast I can knock down another day. Woo
Thanks for getting back to me. I definitely need that peace of mind so I can't access any even if I was tempted!
Going to update then download first thing tomorrow!

35 days. Downloaded gamban. Just to be certain. Thanks SJ

I have thought about gambling this morning. Then thought why? You didn't gamble 2 years ago and managed to get through a day without the world ending. So why so you need to gamble now? Obviously the answer is I don't. What are the positive points? None
Lose money
Lose yourself
Lie to yourself
Lie to the important people in your life
Guilt
Anxiety
Depression
Nerves
Sick
I could go on and on.
So no . I'm not giving in.
I will beat this. And I plan to never look back.

Stay strong everyone.

Seem to have lost a day somewhere so it's actually 37 days since I last gambled! Yes!

Setting myself a 100 day target.

I will never be free from this, I do believe I will always at some point have gambling thoughts. But I cannot give in. I remind myself of the feelings and thoughts I have had. And it's a dark dark place I would never want to return to. I remind myself I have no control. No amount of winnings will ever make me stop when gambling. Always chasing the next big win. Which I realise is never going to come. And even if it did. I'd probably carry on. Because I am a compulsive gambler. And that is something I have to accept.