Day 234
Posting less these days and thinking a lot less about gambling as well.
The plan still is to erase gambling from my life.
Really enjoyed the Masters over the weekend, normally I'd have a lump riding on a select few.
Was still a joy to watch without a bet as the passion for golf is far greater.
Stay strong everyone.
Day 237
Still grinding away at work and home and trying to beat this addiction that's crippled me for years.
I am in unknown waters right now going so long without a bet.
It's a rollercoaster of emotions each week as gambling has consumed a lot of my time from age 17-33.
All I know is I'm 34 now with two small kids and I can't **** up now, it's time to wise up otherwise I'll be in a dark place for sure.
I'm proud to have almost 8 months GF and I have a lot to look forward to.
Even though I feel I have everything. A fantastic missus, two amazing kids and good job I still have these selfish thoughts of going absolutely mental with the gambling.
I'm not sure if that will ever go away but I am happy that I'm on the right path.
Sorry for the rambling but as you all know it's good to get some thoughts off your chest.
All the best everyone.
Breakfree
Good luck mate, it scares me when I see someone with your numbers mentioning how tough it still is as i’m only less than 3 weeks into my journey.
Wish you all the best
Day 247
Sunday morning and feeling reflective.
My weekends are very different these days.
No deposits, no stress, no chasing, no mood swings, no praying for that goal, no false borrowed money from the bookies, no lies and no recovery plans after doing my nuts.
It's been 247 days since I decided enough is enough and I've come a long way but this is just the beginning.
I've still got my eye on 1 year gamble free 🙂
The best way I can describe my situation is.
I've been living in a bubble for 15 years thats been controlled by the bookies and finally I've popped the bubble and there is no more pain.
Have a great Sunday:-)
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Day 256
Plan is now to grind away and enjoy life until my summer holiday in August.
August will mark 1 year gamble free, the longest I've ever managed.
Stay strong everyone.
Day 267
Just popping in to say hi.
Still no betting with the bookies. Life is moving fast being a family man, working and trying to improve my golf game!
Almost 9 months GF now and I don't miss it a bit.
Have a great evening everyone.
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Day 275
Debt is heavy on my shoulders at the moment and would normally turn to gambling for an answer.
I'm chipping away at it and I need to be more patient as life is great apart from my financial situation.
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Day 286
Enjoying the summer here and free from thoughts of gambling:-)
Take care all
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Day 298
Hello diary.
Posting less and thoughts of gambling are less frequent. It doesn't interest me anymore and to be honest I am a bit ashamed of how much I've lost over the years.
Now the gambling fog and red mist is clearing, I am really seeing how much of a trance I was in.
Always telling myself that I have things under control and I can keep my head in front.
The reality was I was never in front, I was drowning and truly sucked into the gambling bubble.
The bubble is burst for now and I'm looking forward to my summer holiday with the family.
August 18th marks a big day for me, one year without a bet.
Strong strong everyone.
Breakfree
Day 300
300 days GF 🙂
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Day 316
Enjoying the summer, World Cup and great weather!
Don't miss that black cloud above my head. Almost 11 months GF now 🙂
Stay strong everyone
Day 330
11 months GF and looking forward to my summer holiday in 3 weeks.
Stay strong everyone
Day 367
Thought I'd pop in to celebrate and hopefully inspire others to follow suit.
I've just past 1 year without a bet. This time last year I was rock bottom and close to losing it all.
I'd had enough and decided to make a change and stop, it's been a rocky road but it does get easier and after a while gambling thoughts do become less frequent and you can enjoy your life again.
I've gained my self respect back again, I am a father to my kids, a husband to my wife, that friend I wanted to be, I enjoy my hobbies, I travel more and my zest for life has returned.
All of the above was hanging on a thread or non existent due to gambling. I don't miss it in the slightest and I won't be going back.
I've taken my life back and popped the bubble I've been in for 15 years and I hope everyone who reads this pops their own bubble.
All the best everyone.
Breakfree
Day 384
Still on the wagon.
My life is very different these days and I'm only looking forward and living in the present.
I'll be debt free in 2 years and the world will then be my oyster.
Stay strong everyone.
Breakfree
Day 426
Just updating.
I'm still not gambling and I'm holding firm. If I'm honest it's not easy and I'm on my own with this one.
I'm doing this for my myself, my missus and my two sons.
I am from a gambling family it's all I've known since I was a teenager.
My father and brother continue to gamble and they don't recognise I'm trying to change and stop gambling.
Every year they ask me if I want to go to Cheltenham festival. It makes me so mad that i dont have their support.
I think I'm drifting away from them.
They only care about the next bet and drink.
I need to distance myself from this or I'll be sucked back in. Mad to think I'm still struggling after 426 days GF.
All I know is if I don't place that first bet I'll be alright.
Take care everyone.
Breakfree
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