why,why,why!!!!!!!

Thanks Cheryl,

Yes I had a good afternoon at sons, it was good to get out of the house lol, and be waited on, lol.

OH and I used to regularly go out to a pub for Sunday lunch, ( obviously those were the good days before gambling destroyed our lives) lol.

Suzanne xxx

Day 44

Spent most of the day in Hospital outpatients, but another positive outcome.
No gambling today and no thoughts.
Just onwards and upwards I hope a day at a time
Cheryl xxx

Hi Cheryl

Am sooo pleased for you about the positive outcome at the A and E, you must be really relieved.

.And hey girl, no gambling and NO thoughts and on 44 days, big achievement for you,be very proud my friend, cos I am very proud of you.

Onwards and upwards

Take care

Suzanne xxxx

Day 45

No interest to gamble today

Cheryl xxx

Hi Cheryl,

Pleased to read you have joined the 2015 challenge, your determination is shining through.

45 days, 5 off that big milestone of 50, very well done. and a great achievement

Suzanne xx

Day 46

Uneasy feelings today and having to keep my thoughts in check.
The gaming industry will be getting no money from me today.
Onwards and upwards
Cheryl xxx

Hi Cheryl,

Not having a good morning myself lol, because of dealing with gambling debt, but it makes me feel even stronger and more determined to never go back, just think of your debts today, and that hideous addiction will slide back into the gutter where it belongs.

Stay strong and stay safe

Suzanne xxx

Day 48

No thoughts of gambling and taking it one day at a time
Onwards and upwards
Cheryl xxx

Cheryl,

48 days, 2 days of 50 that big milestone, very proud of you too, keep taking one day at a time, and keep thinking positive and keep that addiction where it belongs in the sewers, it hates that.

Take care and stay safe.

Suzanne xxxx

with you cheryl

keep it going

day 48 🙂 tri

Day 50

Feel like a lost soul but no gambling despite some almighty urges. Have self excluded from all sites and no access to money. So the triangle is working.

Have a massive uphill climb to sort debts but will concentrate my brain on this.
Can probably guess from the hour I can't sleep and today feels like my first day again.
The effort to beat this addiction is astounding and that horrid little voice in my head will not keep quiet.
Read on here about life music and gambling music very apt as my gambling music is full bladt despite me trying to mute it.
I will NOT give in to it as I so want to be free.
Hope everyone has a peaceful life music day.
Onwards and upwards
Cheryl xxx

Morning Cheryl,

Hope those urges have subsided better still diminished this morning, you know you can override them, they are just nasty thoughts, concentrate on sorting your debts into manageable payments if you can, once you are in control of your debts, it's a lot easier then to control those horrible urges, you won't feel the need to win money back to pay for the debts, as they then won't be a big worry.

I feel better having put all my debts.on a token payment plan, have you spoken to Stepchange, I have, they were very helpful, they can even help you if priority debts are building up, just a thought.

Very very proud of you 50 days today, you have reached an important milestone, stay strong my friend and keep going forwards.

Take care and stay safe.

Suzanne xxx

Managed a few hours and feeling more positive now.
Should be able to go back to work this week. Bit of a double edged sword will be good to get back to normal but may lose my job.
Am going to put the latter to the back of my head for now.
Have learnt so much from this site and with people's support I want to make 2015 a year to be proud of myself.
The knock on effect to that will improve my home and work life.
Stay safe everyone
Cheryl xxx

Hi
Cheryl

The urges never leave us until we identify the areas in our lives that are causing us pain & directly deal with them. Addiction only remains when we need it for our solution to deal with life

Dan

Can't add up today Cheryl, it's 38 weeks today not 39 lol, I have just amended it but it's still nearly full term pregnancy time lol.

Pleased you are feeling more positive this morning, will keep fingers for you crossed about your job.

Suzanne xx