why,why,why!!!!!!!

Hi
Cheryl
Have you tried GA. There you will find a recovery program called the 12 steps it is designed to take you through all those feelings of shame frustration anger & resentments you are struggling to deal with.

The gamcare therapists are very different to what GA can offer you. I know it can be difficult with shifts but it is surely worth giving it a try. Give it 90 days it will change your life i guarantee it!

Dan x

Hi Cheryl,

thank you for the post on my diary. I have been reading yours, and wish I was as far along as you are. I know you are having bad feelings at the moment ( I guess it's part of the withdrawal) but just think how crappy you would be feeling if you weren't on day 65 now. The guilt is horrible isn't it, but we can't change the past, only the present and the future. You should be sooo proud of how well you are doing.

I see a lot of myself in how you were - payday would come, once all the bills and rent had gone, so would all the rest of my money for the month, as I had gambled it away - I'd try and do a budget working out how we were gonna afford stuff for the rest of the month, promising that next month would be different - it never was! The guilt and self loathing so high, that as soon as a bit of money would hit my account, it'd be gambled, in the hope I could at least double it! This is the first month in years that I have actually still got money in my account (yes, I owe thousands - I'm on a self managed DMP) but we have money to live on, something that's never happened before, due to my own stupidity and addiction.

Wishing you all the best Cheryl, you have come so so far. I'm here for you, as I am sure a lot of others are too xxx

Whats your local group Cheryl its possible i may have contact details for some one there if you had any questions or if you have any reservations about it iplease ask me

Dan x

I have emailed them will hopefully get a response later today & will pass on the details for you. The time & location of the meeting will be on the GA website i think if memory serves me there weekly meeting is tonight!

Have found their page and it's on a Wednesday night and thank you so much for your help
Cheryl x

No thanks required. Just let me know how you got on

Dan x

cheryl rooting for you

hoot hoot

tri x

Hi you, just dropping by to congratulate you on your 68 days 🙂

& offer my support in these dark days! Stay strong & you will get through them I am confident in you! I am lucky that I have been able to separate myself from this anger you talk about & apportion the blame to the addiction because I don't know how I would cope otherwise! I hope you can find a way very quickly to do this & be able to use the anger as a tool in your recovery rather than further punishment on top of what the evil demons have already inflicted!

Walking right alongside you! Keep strong - ODAAT

68 days
That's over 2 months now and none in 2015. That does sound good, am trying to find my mojo and get a bit more positive and will keep trying

Cheryl xxx

Hi cheryl,

Thanks for your lovely message.

Hey 68 days of winning, very proud of you my friend, I know how hard it is for you, but you know abstaining and maintaining is the only way forwards to Sanity and peace.

You are doing it girl, the smooth will be coming your way, just keep holding on tight,

As always right along side with you (on and off here )

Take care and stay safe.

Suzanne xxxxxxx

Hi
Cheryl

Did you manage to get to that meeting?

Dan x

How do I start my own forum?

Hi Leah
Do you mean your own diary???
Cheryl x

Hi again, if you like the sound of 2 months, imagine what a ring 10 weeks will have in 2 more sleeps 🙂

With or without your mojo, you should still be patting yourself on the bag because you are still walking the right path & they is something to be very proud of!